Now I know how much it hurts to wait for a day that is unsure to come
Now I know how much guts it takes to hold onto things one sided, without any balance
Now I know how torturous days can be when your heart is unsteady
Now I know how defeated you feel, when everything keeps reminding you of things that you wish to be distracted from
Now I know how difficult it is to let the days pass, when even the milliseconds remind you of the memories
Memories. I don't wish to forget, nor would I want to be distracted from. Oh, wait didn't I say the opposite before. Well, yes. Let me clarify. I wouldn't want to be distracted from them, but if I don't, who knows how messed up I would be, bleeding and hurting myself with the memories. Oh, did I tell you, how 'the good memories' ignite expectations which I don't want to hold? And how 'the bad memories', comes with conclusion that I don't want to think about? How do I conclude this? How do I explain things? How do I let my heart feel at peace? How do I keep myself intact when I feel all drained inside? How?!
All of these questions, which I've no answer for, keeps bugging me, with no proper explaination, I fail. I fail, realising what I need to find, I fail to see the truth and just the solutions that sublime. I am afraid, I may lose it, once and for all.
Ya Rabil Aalameen,grant me patience, that I desperately in need of. Don't make me reckless. Help me find myself, and accept our prayers, and guide us all to the path, that is right. Aameen.
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Unpuzzling, the chaos.
RandomThis book follows the daily chaos my brain comes in contact with, but hardly can solve the issues. I am not here to pin point anyone, I am here to vent out my feelings, and I hope y'all will respect that. Just another ordinary girl, living the ord...
