INDIA
I watched Aug's chest rise and fall as he slept.
Yesterday was eventful to say the least.
I ended up canceling on Jaz and Kianna yesterday to spend the day with Aug.
Aug telling me he was fucking Kianna lit a fire inside me I didn't even know was there.
Him telling me that made feelings come up that I thought were gone or non existent for that matter.
For as long as him and I been friends I've been telling everybody I don't see him as nothing more when for years I've always wondered what if about me and Aug.
Especially after my birthday last year. We may have been drunk but I knew what I was doing just like he did but we agreed not to bring it up.
That trip involved a lot of feelings and he even left almost a week early because of what was going on between us. I swept it under the rug because 2 months later Jayceon and I were back together and Aug had Mia.
Ever since Aug and I ain't been the same.
I sighed getting out of bed.
I shivered as the AC hit my naked body.
Yeah we went there. And now I can't come back from that shit.
I went in the bathroom and stared at myself for a long time.
I had hickies trailing my body.
Flash backs of last night flooded my head.
"Prove it." Aug said as his lips brushed over mine.
By now I just wanted him to kiss me.
Before I knew it his hand pulled me into him by my neck and our lips were moving like they'd been missing each other never losing sync.
Flashes of us fucking up the room hit me as soon as I felt Aug's presence behind me.
When I looked up I saw him staring at me in the mirror.
He turned me around making me face him and I looked away not able to look at him because of what took place yesterday.
He grabbed my face making me look at him.
"So what we gon do na'." He spoke lowly looking over my face as his thumb ran over my cheek.
"I don't know." I said barely above a whisper.
"We can't go back." He said looking me in my eyes.
"I know." I sighed.
"You wish you could don't ya." He asked me.
"No no. Not at all Aug. I don't regret it." I told him being honest.
He smiled down at me and kissed my forehead.
"Me neitha'."He told me.
"I don't know where we supposed to go from here though... you got Kianna and Mia hanging in the balance." I told him.
"They don't matta' I'm right hea' wit who I want." He told me.
"You sure us is what you want?" I asked him. "You said you didn't mention anything to me cause you feel you don't deserve me..." I said to him.
He looked at me and immediately stepped back away from me.
"Yeah I did." He said.
"So do you still believe that Aug?" I asked him and he stayed quiet.
"Aug?" I said reaching out to touch him but he stepped back away from me all over again.
"I gotta go." He mumbled backing away from me out of the bathroom.
The look he held on his face was of disgust.
"Aug!?" I yelled after him realizing he had left out of the room already.
I caught him at the door.
"What just happened back there? What was that?" I asked him making him turn and look at me.
"We can't do dis." He said not looking at me.
"Why Aug?"
"Yesterday was a mistake." He said. "I shoulda' neva' did dat'. I just added you ta' tha' list with the rest of the females including Ki and Mia." He told me and walked out.
