I'm such a f*ckin lady

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You know those days where nothing seems to go right? Well guess the fuck what? I just had one of those days, I just had one of those days where everything in my visible sight seems to want to annoy me to a point where I just want to destroy everything and everyone around me. It started off with my fucking stupid school tablet, which honestly I'd rather not have because they are a peice of shit. I try to do some study before an exam I don't think I'll do well on before I go to school and it decided to freeze and get rid of all my hard work! I picked it up and shook it to the point where my arms got tired or I felt I had to throw it away from me, but as it's not rightfully my property, I can't do that. I just chucked it on my bed, getting up and walking away from the horrid thing. I came out of my room to eat some food before I went to school and my mum starts to get angry at me for no absolute reason and I honestly feel like punching her right in the mouth so she'll just shut the fuck up and stop making my headache even worse. She questions why I all of a sudden decided to go quiet after a good month of her being able to hear what I'm actually saying. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm just not a naturally loud person and I'm just naturally quiet and I've been brought up that way, my parents didn't do shit to make me louder. Most likely because I didn't have two parents at once growing up, my parents split up when I was five and I rotate every week. My mum is just angry all the time, and my dad, I really don't know what's wrong with him because he doesn't tell me. My mum always complains about me not talking to her or telling her anything, but she wonders why I mean, when I tell her something, she'll either give me a fucking lecture or get angry at me! And anyway, she never tells me shit.

When I got to school, I stepped in a wet fucking dirty puddle and it soaked my shoe and made my white sock a light brown. I had to walk around with one cold wet foot and one dry and it felt completely abnormal and I didn't like it. Then my friend decided she's on her period, and I know she can't help it, but go angry at me for no reason again and gave me all this bullshit additude that I didn't even arouse out of her. Then the grade twelver that I think is unbelievably hot decides he's going to stretch out his legs, showing off his beautiful sexy bum and nearly makes me collapse making a weird moan coming from my mouth, then everyone looked at me like there was something wrong with me and it was very embarrassing. On my way home I was listening to music and my phone decided to run out of battery so I was bored for the rest of the way home. when I got home my mum was there and she wasn't supposed to be back until five, and when I got inside I knew she had a headache because she was lying on the couch holding her head. I simply asked her what's wrong and she just yelled at me for not being able to hear me, being sick of her shit, I walked away until I was told to come back out there to her. I repeated my question and then she have me a lecture about if she could hear me she wouldn't be angry and to be honest I really wasn't the mood and I was sick of her at this point.

I just wanted to go listen to some 5sos and go to sleep, actually that seems like all I ever want to do nowadays.