Lumina Sherwood was diagnosed with Leukemia Stage 2. Back then, Lumina is a very ambitious talented daughter until her disease suddenly emerge along in her perfect life. Because of her disease, Lumina barely interact with other people and that cause...
Ivor drive me home safe and sound. I stare at the stars above shining so bright in the night sky. I sigh. I had a really long day back there. The tattoo is still painful but it's bearable. I like how it was perfectly engrave under my collar bone. Suddenly I remembered how we perfectly looked good together, when I saw the vision of us in the mirror. We could make a good family though but I am not staying longer not forever not for infinity and not with him. I felt that warm teardrop suddenly fell down on my eyes. I really dont deserve him, he's too good for me, I mean I can't leave him here. I dont want to break his heart but I love him so much. I wish I could've just met him before, before this stupid thing grow inside my body and now it's killing me! Why? Just why? Of all the people in this world why me all of a sudden? I tried to wipe the tears to go away but it didn't. I love my family and it's just—- I am not ready to die. What can I do? The due date is already coming soon, it's may happen anytime and I can't stop it nor prevent it. I guess I should accept the fact that I'm dying.
I wiped my tears and closed my window. Ivor surely is asleep already. I dont want to disturb his sleep, not now. I walked through my bathroom to throw up and just as I expected drops of blood are coming out of my mouth. This is getting worst. I looked at myself in the mirror. I'm miserable. This disease is making me miserable. I comb my hair that is getting in my face and it's—— my hair. No no no. I'm losing some hair, I took my hair brush and comb my hair and I lost a bunch of hair. I cried hard. I sobbed. I didn't notice that Mama heard me and I immediately locked the bathroom.
"Lumina?" She called out my name and her voice is getting nearer into the bathroom. Until she keept knocking on the door.
"Lumina? Open the door now, darling. Please. Dont kill yourself. We can still talk about it Lumina. Please. Open the door!" My mom said shouting, she was already crying, I heard her sobs mixing with my own sobs and that made me cry again really hard. I'm sorry Mama. I heard her hard knocks again on the door and suddenly everything got quiet. I sniff and wipe my tears and get up to take a peak at the door. She is gone. I sat on the cold floor of the bathroom, hugging my legs and burying my head between my knees. I'm losing control now. After 5 minutes of staying in the bathroom, I get up and fis myself. I'm going to get all og this hair out of my head. I'm shaving it tomorrow. I was about to open the door but—-
"Lumina?" I heard a deep voice leaning against my bathroom door. It's him.
"Lumina? Open the door now. Let's talk." He said his voice is calm.
"Please baby. Open the door. I can't stand you being like that. Please dont make this difficult for me. Let's talk about it. Tell me about it. We're partners right? We should talk about it, baby." After hearing those words from him, my tears started to fall again. My Ivor. Im so sorry. I wish I could've said it to him. I'm scared he might not want me again, looking like this.
"Please." He begged. I wiped my tears and decided to open the door and I saw him with tears in his eyes, he looked at me. And pulled me closer to him, he wrapped me with his broad arms and he buried his head into my neck, he cried very hard. Like a 5 year old kid bullied by his classmates. I can't help but cry too. I love him so much. I can't watch him being like this when I leave. He pulled away from our hugs, and he looked at me.
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"You're losing your hair." He said wiping his tears.
"Y—yeah." I said in a low voice.
"Come here, I dont want you away from me. From now on." He said sniffing.
"Yes." I answered. Suddenly my mom walks in with my brother. They're both crying. My little brother lian ran up to me and hugged me.
"Dont ever do that again, Lumina! Huhuhuhuhu." He said shouting at me, crying between my legs.
"I will." I held his chin up and smiled at him. To assure that everything is alright. Suddenly I turned my head to mama whos standing beside my bed.
"Ma?" I said trying not to break my voice.
"Are you okay? I'm sorry. I left you back there. I called out Ivor for help cause you aren't opening the door. I thought you were de—dead." Her voice is breaking. She is already crying.
"I'm sorry Ma." After what happened I couldn't say anything. I'm just stupid for not coming out immediately. I just didn't want Mama to suffer and watch me being like this, I know what she felt watching me in pain, watching me suffer all the time. But I tried to smile for her, to assure that everything is alright and dont worry about me. I wish I could say that everything will be okay, cause I know that everything will never be okay.
I ran up to her and hugged her really tight. I can't leave her with Lian. But I really dont have a choice. I buried my head on her neck and cry. I felt her hands rubbed my back.
"It's okay darling. I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you." She whispered to my ear.
"I love you ma." I said pulling away from the hug.
She smiled. Her sweet smile that she always gives me. Her smile that I will take up to my grave. "I love you too darling."
I turned my head to Ivor and for the last time. I hugged him really tight. He cried again. None of us dare to say anything. I just hugged him really tight that I will never let him go but I will in the end. I wish I could say the words I'm sorry but I pulled away from the hug and smiled weakly to him. His eyes are already sore because of crying .
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He caress my face. "It's time now?" He asked. I just smiled and nod. I felt it. It was my time. I pulled him for a kiss. He responded passionately, I never stopped until we ran out of breathe. We rest at each other's forehead.
"Goodbye Lumina." He whispered letting the teardrops fell from his Green eyes.
"It's not Goodbye, It's see you later." I said. There are really moments in our lives that seems to define us. And I guess He was the one. Our lives is a series of moments, that in the end we have to let it go. Cause everything is only temporary even me, and him. I guess in this universe, I was the Sun and he was the moon and we will never collide.
