It's Gotta be You

I didn't mean to hurt YOU

Shar's POV

2 months, 2 weeks, 4 days and 13 hours na ang nakakalipas, hindi ko na nakikita si Nash di na rin sya nagpaparamdam.

"Jai? anyare asan yung pinsan mo?" tanong ko magkasama kasi kami dito sa library. Pinaliwanag ko naman kay Jai kung bakit ko ginawa yun at naiintindihan nya naman daw. Ayaw nya rin naman na magalit sila papa sakin kaya ayun hanggang ngayon nagpapanggap pa din sya.

"Hindi ko din alam e, pero sabi kasi ni Lolo sumama daw sa mama nya sa US. Hayaan mo muna sya Shar maybe he's taking a break from all of this, alam ko yung nararamdaman ng pinsan ko... kasi naramdaman ko na yun" hearing him say those words? alam ko namang ako din ang may kasalanan e, ewan ang gulo na talaga. Out of no where... "Jai? Hindi ka ba napapagod? I mean dito sa ginagawa natin? di ka ba napapagod mag panggap sa bagay na gusto mo naman talagang gawin? Its like I'm avoiding you to find better, parang pinipigilan kita na mahanap yung tamang babae para sayo yung papasayahin ka talaga" I seriously ask him, tinitingnan ko sya dahil he's paying attention sa binabasa nya and with what I ask he looked at me nakikita ko yung pag kaseryoso nya.

"Konti na lang shar... konting konti na lang... Mapapagod na ko" bigla syang tumayo at iniwan ako.

Sorry Jai... Sorry talaga

Lexi's POV

"Osige! alis na ko!" nagpaalam na ko sa mga clubmates ko.

Paglabas ko

"Aray ko-- Oh Jai" he helped me pick up my things. Wait is he? what the "Hey? why are you crying?" he wiped his tears. Then he suddenly hugged me, please stop this Jairus. I don't know what to do, do I also have to hug him back? Oh sheez! Whatever people would say about this I don't care!

"Thanks Lexi... thanks for always being there for me when I really needed you"

Jairus POV

I know I shouldn't do that but I don't know, I have the urge to do so. But I was taken aback by her sudden response, she even hugged me tighter then said "As long as you need me Jairus, I'll never leave your side and when you need me I'm just a text/call away okay?" then she breaks the hug and looked at me and smile. Nagulat lang talaga ko kase napaka halaga sakanya ng tingin sakanya ng mga tao ni hindi ko sila nakita ni Nash na nagyakap ni holding hands and she never hug a guy in public. Wait? I'm being so malicious nilalagyan ko ng meaning yung mga ginagawa nya. Friendly lang sya okay? F.R.I.E.N.D.L.Y!

"Hey? kanina pa tayo naglalakad at kanina ka pa tahimik, won't you share why are you crying? Oh..." I know she had a clue why.

"What happen to the both of you? akala ko ba okay ka na?" she knew everything pati yung pagpapanggap namin ni shar. I said to her na okay na sakin kahit ganito muna yung set up kasi I know one day makakamove on na sya kay Nash kaya lang parang hindi e.

"She still can't get over him, Lexi masyado ba ko mahirap mahalin? bakit puro na lang si Nash? bakit si Nash ang swerte sa lahat? favorite sya ni Lolo lagi na lang syang magaling... Lexi I'm scared... scared that one day I'll find my self hating my own cousin!" she was there silent looking at the sky while caressing my back.

"I'm a bit disappointed to Jai" she said smiling and shaking her head. "Why?" I was looking at her clueless.

"Nakikita mo lang yung mga bagay na wala sayo mga taong ayaw sayo pero ni minsan ba napansin mo yung mga taong andyan para sayo? Yung parents mo? diba kompleto kayo while Nash? he belongs to those kids whose family is broken did you even considered that? Oh I mean did you even consider your self lucky for a complete and happy family? Jairus si Sharlene lang ang nawala sayo! Hindi buong mundo and don't blame Nash dahil dyan kasi wala syang kasalanan and remember he also got hurt because you both deceive him, he still believes a lie that broke his heart while you enjoys the company of the girl he loves and Jai that should be him! remeber?" she stops for a while, No I'm not mad at her I understand her.

"So-sorry Jai..." aalis na sya but then I held her hand.

"Lexi please stay with me muna..." I please her but she remove my hand to her ankle. And when she looks at me.. Damn it! I made her cry, I never see her cry! But why!?

"No, jai... please... maybe I might not control my emotions, my perception and I'm scared to lose my dignity! So please just stay away from me just for a while..." then she run away.

"No! wait Lexi!" I run after and hug her from behind.

"Please wag pati ikaw, wag pati ikaw mawala sakin Lexi... baka di ko na makayanan, I don't know I'm so confused right now. Maybe I like you?" She remove my hug and then faces me.

"Jai! don't send mix signals to me! I might hope that you really like me! Jai! I never wanted to be hopia someday!"

"Wait are you saying you maybe like me too?" is this real!?

"Yes jai! I like you!" he punch me to the chest "I hate you for not noticing that! you've been to numb and your love to shar makes you so blinded that you can't even see the people who really loves you without pleasing and asking them to"