One minute, I'm at the bonfire hanging out with chuck and comparing pictures with him.
Then the next minute, I'm being dragged to the slammer by, you know. The eyebrow queen.
"Gally, you slinthead, it was just a joke," i said trying to resist his strong grasp. Damn he tough!
"Joking about the maze for me isn't a joke," he said throwing me into the slammer. I tried to escape but he quickly locked the damn door and smirked at me.
"Have a great night, Y/N," he said chuckling to himself as he walked away. I grunted and kicked the wall and dropped to the ground.
~Why can't I just defend myself for once, for her~ (<--- Y/N thoughts)
I started to think of her. Tiffany.
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An image of her flashed through my head. I remember that moment.
Flashback
"Y/N!"
"Huh, what," i said realizing I stared at her again.
"This is the fifth time you've stared at me, is something wrong?" she said scooting closer to me, moving the plate of chocolate cake somewhere else on the picnic blanket. We were on our 2nd anniversary date. I just couldn't stop staring at my girlfriend.
"Well, yes there is something," i said scooting closer to her. I put my forehead on hers so she couldn't look away from me when I said this, "You're you."
She just looked at me, like she knew what I was trying to do.
"I'm not even going to question it, babe," she said before letting her lips touch mines. At that moment I knew that our love was true and unbreakable. That we would be together forever.
At least that's what I thought before all of this. I felt something wet on my face. I touched it and i realized I was crying. I gave in. I let out all the sounds I could before I heard something. I looked up and saw a body. I quickly got up and was ready to fight. Even if I'm in the glade and should trust all the gladers doesn't mean I can't defend for myself.
But I realized something.
Everytime I tried to defend myself, I failed miserably. I decided it was time to give up. Give up trusting, being happy, sad, confused. I gave up on life. I then slid back down and put my head on my knees and sighed.
"If that's you gally, you can kill me now. You win, wait let me say that again so you can be happy, YOU win. Actually life wins. I already gave up, so you can end me now if you want. If not i'll do it myself," i said while still being in the same position.
"My pleasure"
"Wait gally," i heard. I looked up and saw alby, newt, thomas, and teresa. And in front of them all was gally. The guy who would be grateful to kill me.
"Y/N, i'm gonna let you out and we're gonna have a talk ok," said alby while opening the door. "And you gally, can go to sleep."
"Fine," said gally with a groan. He looked at me with a death glare as he walked away.
I got out and walked with everyone towards the bonfire. It was still lit. For some reason I felt the urge of walking in it. Maybe it would feel nice to just touch it.
"Ok y/n," said alby looking straight at me, "What did you mean, about you giving up."
I didn't look at him. I looked at the fire.
"I mean that i give up on everything," said slowly taking off the jacket I had. I then took off my shoes. I heard something behind me but no one else seemed to notice. I looked behind me and saw gally hiding behind a tree. I grinned knowing he was gonna enjoy this. I looked at the others and saw that they were confused.
"Hey, Y/N, why did you take off your jacket and shoes," said thomas slowly coming towards me.
I smiled and looked behind me again, ready to run.
"HEY GALLY," i yelled seeing gally coming out of the trees and coming closer to me," you didn't do it so I'm gonna," i said before bolting to the bonfire. I heard yelling for me to stop but I didn't listen. I wanted to see her again. Just one more time. I jumped in the fire and settled in my now little spot. My vision started to get blurry and I heard screaming and yelling and sobbing. I looked out of the fire and saw people trying to get rid of the fire. But it was too late. Once they got rid of the fire, I was on the ground, skin melted and eyes pouring a white liquid and my body covered in blood. I felt someone pick me up and what I saw was teresa in tears.
"I love you," she said before closing my eyes with her hand. After a while, I then opened my eyes and saw my dead body and teresa sobbing. She was leaning into thomas' hug. She was looked so heartbroken. Now I just felt bad.
Why did I do that? Why am I me? Why can't I just make everyone happy?
