spring poems

Dear Crush

Dear crush,
theres a reason why I don't text you.

I don't text you because I feel sick when I think of you.
I don't text you because if the way you act.
I don't text you because of the way you look.
I don't text you because of the way we met.

Sounds stupid and rude, right? Let me explain

You make me feel butterflies and I get all sweaty and hot when I'm near you or thinking of you. It's not fair how you make me feel like this.

Since the moment we met, you've been nothing but fun, goofy, kind and nice. I, however, was not like this from the beginning. I was rude and stubborn. But you never asked for an apology when I hit you by accident. You're always kind to people, to me anyways. 

Let's be honest, maybe you're not the best looking person in the whole world, but you're a 10 in my book.

A while ago, we were both at a party, and I kept trying to advoid you. I was nervous to approach you, scared of what you might say. Eventually, I approached your sister, and your ex was there. You went up and sang, and maybe I'm being dilusional, but you kept glancing towards me. Or maybe it was to your sister. 

Your ex. She was very nice, and I was very jealous. However, she did manage to make you go up with me and dance. It was funny, you're too tall and I'm too short, it's a funny combination. You tried your best to help me, despite me slipping away due to my sweaty hands.

But maybe that was it. The combination, out conversations, your looks, my attitude. None of it combine, none of it mixes well with each other. We aren't for each other. 

My friend talks to me a lot. She made me rethink my feelings, right when I thought they had gone. But I was still right. 

In the end, I'm afraid of losing my friend. I'd rather everything stay the same than confess. So there lie my feelings, at the bottom of my heart. But like everything, things change...

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So, I've had this as a draft for a long time now, maybe a month or so, but I have a 2nd part coming up soon, it's still in the process of making. My updating schedule is still a little wacky, but I'm doing my best since school is almost out.