Deceive | Jin FF

22

3 years later

March

Y/N's POV

"Thanks for your order" the waitress said while giving me my Iced Americano. I turned to leave but I heard some people whispering behind me and someone hushed them and pointed to the wide TV hanging on the wall. Someone else turned the volume up and the news lady was being heard at the entire cafe.

"It's been three years since the death of the youngest member of the former group BTS, Jeon Jungkook.

People have gathered to the park near his house where he was shot to death by a sasaeng that used to be his girlfriend. As you can see they pay their respects to the late young man by singing his songs and leaving flowers.

Few people said that they saw some of the other members standing near the area, but none of them came closer to the park.

Let's all pray for the soul of the young artist and hope that nothing like that happens again. Now back to happier news..."

The volume went back to mute and the cafe was filled with sorrow and sadness. Memories of that night came back and a tear escaped my eye. "MOM LOOK! CANDIES!" I turned around horrified by the high pitched voice of the child running towards me without paying attention and the small girl smacked her face on my legs. "Watch out, Jiwoo, you'll hurt yourself and the woman" the mother of the kid said while kneeling to check on her daughter. "It's okay, I'm fine" I said and the woman stood up in front of me "Y/N? Is that you?" I stared at her and no words could describe what I felt. "Jennie? This..Is this your kid?" I asked even though I already knew the answer. "Yeah..i guess" she said holding her daughter's hand tight. "Relax. I'm alone. I haven't seen any of them for almost 2 years. Is this Jimin's kid?" I asked noticing her being tensed up. "Y/N.. I couldn't do this to her. I left him before I knew I was pregnant but even when I found out I wasn't sure if I wanted to go back." I sighed "It's okay. I get it. I don't think I can go back either." she relaxed a bit "Do you have time to talk?" she asked and I nodded. We sat on a nearby empty table. "How are you? What are you doing?" she initiate the conversation.
"I think I'm doing okay. I have my own studio now and I work alone. How about you?" she looked at her daughter "I'm better now. I gave up my career as an actress and I teach at a local school now. I know it's not my place to ask, but.." she trailed off "It's okay" I reassured her. "Why did you leave? I mean, I thought you were in love" my eyes become teary and the image of Jin popped up in my mind. The way he looked at me while I was packing my things telling him not to follow me. How broken he was. "We were. And some part of me still is. I love him but i don't know how to be with him. I left cause my dad died 2 years ago. I was so sad and I couldn't think straight so I told him that we're done, that I can't be with him anymore. The truth is, I didn't want to bring more sadness in his life. He had been through enough already and I didn't want to hurt him. I don't think he'll ever forgive me" at this point I was crying my eyes out, not caring what the people around thought. Her daughter reached out her hand and gave me a napkin. "Y/N, have you tried to communicate with him? He might still want to be with you" Jennie said "I don't think so and I'm scared to find out to be honest" I got a grip of my feelings and wiped my tears away kindly smiling to Jiwoo while taking the napkin from her tiny hand. "But Jennie, Jimin has changed a lot. For that one year I spent with Jin he was always around taking care of us and putting Jin's needs before his own. He really tried to redeem himself for what he did. And Jungkook's death cost him a lot. Is there anything that can at least make you consider telling him about Jiwoo? You guys have a child together, you deserve a second chance. He deserves it." she was frowning. She looked at her daughter playing with a small doll. "She needs her father, Jennie. You know it." Jiwoo looked up at her mother then me "Do you know my father?" she asked me and I nodded. "How does he look like? Is he beautiful?" I looked at Jennie and before I could answer she took Jiwoo's hand "How about we go see him and you'll tell me if he's beautiful or not?" her small brown eyes became a thin line and disappeared as she smiled at what her mother said, and at that moment, I knew that Jiwoo was Jimin's daughter for sure.

September

*Thank you*
A single message from Jennie made me happy, cause she finally got to be with the man she loved, and the father of her kid. But the happiness faded as I thought of Jin. I've considered countless times to text him, or even go to his house. To be honest i went there but I couldn't bring myself to face him. He might had moved on already. I regret my decision to leave him more than anything. I spent my days thinking constantly about him. How things could have turned out if I have just let him be there for me instead of pushing him away. I watched over and over again our movie. This is the only thing I have left from him. The only way I can relive our moments is through these vivid colours inside my laptop's screen. But I guess, it is what it is.

Jin's POV

Constantly auditioning for movies and gigs, writing lyrics on notebooks and napkins, practising dancing and keeping myself busy was my daily routine for the past 2 years. I decided that I can no longer deal with the pain of losing Kookie and then the only person I thought I could lean on. She left me and I can't do anything anymore. Having sex with random girls once in a while, while think of her and only her, just to release some stress. I was closer than ever with Jimin and I was texting and calling the rest of the guys often to make sure they're okay after what happened. I realised that even though we're not a band anymore, we still are family after all those years. Although when I saw Jennie with Jiwoo coming back looking for Jimin, a spark of hope lightened inside me, hoping that Y/N is with her but I was left with disappointment when she told me she hasn't heard of her for a while. I was hanging out with Namjoon when suddenly our phones rang simultaneously. We looked at each other after reading the text. "Let's go" he said standing up and walking out the door.

January

The news of Bangtan's comeback after 4 years where everywhere in the planet. Only now we were 6 instead of 7. But that was no problem for us. Our fans were by our side and supported us more than ever. I felt complete in a way. There were some pieces missing from my life but it is what it is i guess. I had to be grateful for everything I had. We were already planning our world tour and we were all excited and nervous after all this time we hadn't been together as a band.
I was falling asleep when my phone lit up and the light filled my dark room.

*I'm happy for you. Congratulations on the tour*

That's all she had to say to make my heart flutter. But I knew it was just kindness so I smiled at myself, turned the phone off and dozed off, dreaming of her as I do every night.

The end

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No! I REFUSE! This is the end guys. OR IS IT?

First of all, I want to thank you all for being here till the end. I really hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Secondly, I might OR MIGHT NOT, write some more chapters cause I don't feel ready to give this up yet. They'll be more of filler chapters about the lives of the characters in the future. And maybe, JUST MAYBE, it'll be happy end for Y/N and Seokjin. You never know what's going on in this mind of mine. So, thanks once again guys.

A/N

I'll be starting a new book soon called "THE DIARY" so check it out if you want.

You can also check Blank Page (Taejin x Reader) and Remember (M.YG x Reader)

~~Silvia 🙏💜