DESTINY - K. SEOKJIN .
Fame comes with hate, but for some people it's harder to deal with than others. No one noticed the smile fall from his face or the broken pieces of what had once been his confidence and self love. So he took his last breath, b...
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Hey yoongi,
I was very tempted to call you yoongles but I'm sure you'd raise me from the dead just to call me an asshole and then kill me again. I hope you're doing well, your only hyung loves you very much. I will always love you, even though you don't say it back I know you do. Well, I hope you do at the very least. I hope you don't blame yourself, because you didn't do anything. Please don't go back into your old habits, I better not see you up here until you're at least eighty years old and you can't run like a grandpa anymore. Aish, I'm terrified to see what will happen to you when I'm gone.
I'm sure you'd like to know why I had to be a dick and leave you all like this. You've felt the pain I'm in before, but it was your destiny to overcome it and grow stronger. I hate myself so much, Yoongi. I didn't think that I could ever be in this much pain until it slowly began creeping up on me. I had tried talking to you multiple times about it, but I always ended up stuttering out something else and leaving. Remember that one day when you found me crying in the bathroom at three in the morning? I had almost called out for you to stay with me. That was the first night I cut myself. I should have called out for you. I'm calling out for you right now, but you're not here.
I miss our midnight talks and walks in Seoul. I miss our quiet laughs in the middle of the night as we'd be going through the tweets made by ARMY's. I miss allowing you to hug me or making you hug me. I miss the old me and the you that put me above work. We had to grow apart though, it'd hurt you more if we were too close and I took my life then.
I also need to tell you something very important. I see the way you look at Jeongguk. You're in love with him and I can't tell if you're in denial or you just can't bring up the courage to tell him how you feel. Do you see how he looks at you? I think he too has noticed the lingering touches and stares he receives from you. I want you to do what makes you happy. I'm sure if you tell him you'll be so happy and I can see you guys going to fuckingVegas and getting hitched. I'll of course be there, but not on the honeymoon because I sure as hell don't want to see that.
Now I want to leave this on a positive note. You deserve it, Yoongles. Please don't resurrect me for that. Wait- if you do then it better be for the wedding you dickwad. Ah, I love being the only one that can call you a dickwad and be the only one you can't call a dickwad. That word is quite interesting, isn't it?
Anyways, adíos punta! -Jin-hyung aka your only hyung so don't forget me asshole
