DESTINY - K. SEOKJIN .
Fame comes with hate, but for some people it's harder to deal with than others. No one noticed the smile fall from his face or the broken pieces of what had once been his confidence and self love. So he took his last breath, b...
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Hey little mochi,
I have no idea how you're going to react to this. That scares me beyond belief. I just need you to stay alive and know it's okay to be sad without me. I oddly hope you'll be sad without me yet I also don't. I hope you're sad because then I'll know you actually did care, but that'd mean it was all for naught. Please don't think that you did anything to make me believe you don't love me. It's my own thoughts and insecurities that turned into paranoia and anxiety. I don't want you to be sad because then you'll have to suffer like I did, but I'll know that my happiness caused you pain. I know I've told you this countless times, but I love you, Jimin.
Now this is the why part of the note. Are you asking yourself it? Why did he do it? Why did he have to leave? I had to do it to put a stop to the pain and voices. Remember when I use to love myself and you hated yourself? I remember when you told me you envied me for my ability to eat and not care what others think. It's the exact opposite, I envy your ability to overcome those thoughts and learn to love yourself. I hate myself so much to the point it physically hurts. I hate myself even more now that I succumbed to the urge to cut. My once beautiful skin is now scarred and full of blemishes with the thoughts that did not show mercy on me.
I'm sorry for holding you all back with my lack of talent in the dancing and singing area. I'm also sorry for leaving you like this. Just please, no matter what, do not blame yourself whatsoever. Don't let this set you back on your journey to self love. You are beautiful in every way possible. Continue being your sweet and kind self, because the others will need it when I'm gone.
I'll need it when I'm gone. I'll be watching over you every single day so don't you dare miss me or do something I would do. Ah, Jimin. You've always been so pure and kind it breaks my heart when I see you in pain. You need to overcome it though, that's what you're destined to do. You'll be a great man and fall in love with whoever you want, whether it be a man or woman, they'll be great. I wish I could be known as Uncle Jin, could you do that for me? That is more than I should ask for though, for causing you all so much pain and leaving you as though you're nothing. You're something, more than I'd ever be.
Well then my mochi, I'm afraid this has to come to an end. Keep this note in your mind for the rest of your life and never forget it. I love you, Jimin. Stay strong for me.
