Bitter "Sugar"

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And then he added, 'It is what comes from inside that defiles you. For from within, out of a person’s heart, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, wickedness, deceit, lustful desires, envy, slander, pride, and foolishness. All these vile things come from within; they are what defile you.'"

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I woke up, a headache pounded my head and i winced and groaned at , “what happened?” i kept thinking, trying to remember, until i noticed something else, i felt the are arm around my half naked body, i opened my eyes,

I couldn't breathe properly because of what i saw

Hyung,  he was shirtless  and he had his arms around me forming a hug, another boy? He had clothes on but his arms lingered around my waist.

Oh my fucking god

I thought, i blushed and looked  at both of them,

Did i sleep with both of them?

Nono, that's to much, no one likes me anyway.

I slowly moved their arms and got up,

I had such dirty thoughts, i thought about what could have happened and blushed perfoundesly, god i need holy water..

I had only undergarments covering my body, my legs  and arm were exposed, and bandaid up.

Remember when i told you i cut myself? I cut myself a lot it helped me deal with pain, but i panicked as i realized hyung saw, i sighed and started tearing up, he was going to hate me. I placed my head on my hand and looked around the room, jun and ji sung were on a couch which was a relief, now i know i definitely didn't lose my virginity.

I layed back into the middle of the 2 boys, too tired to get up and with a headache i really didn't wanna do anything.

I thought hard, i wasn't too drunk i think, i just can't handle alcohol, and that's when i was able to remember what happened.

Oh god.

We walked to a junkyard, we burnt the garbage there, their was 2-3 bottles of alcohol in  of our hands, we

Sat down and

Talked for a bit, while some lit the fire,

It was always hyung, the one that doesn't get drunk, he's like lactose and tolerant, but with alcohol. I wish i was the same, so i don't have to drink the alcoholic beverages so the drunk feast started,

Ji sung and jun just drank their hearts away, they drank  1-2 cups and they were already wasted. Hyung just smirked and took pictures to remind them on what they looked like. Jisung got up, while tumbling and stood in front of me, tears formed into her eyes and i gave her a concerned but puzzled look. Whats up her? She blurted out “jiyeon, you like hyung,, i'm i correct?” her broken english was adorable, but i froze. Where did she get this idea from? Hyung glanced at me and bit his lip, he was nervous for some reason.

I sighed, it just started and i hate it “jisung, are you good? Where did you get this idea from of course i don’t” hyung looked away with a frown that puzzled me. Jisung  wiped away small tears and with a shaky voice questioned me

“Do you like me?”

And i was completely frozen.

To Be ConTinUed-