Bitter "Sugar"

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13 Keep your servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then I will be blameless, innocent of great transgression.

14 May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

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It was the middle of the day and I was in class, I was drawing on the desks with a sharpie and then I saw that girl, the girl from that day. She was smiling as she drew pictures in her notebook, I didn't like it for some reason i took a deep breath and gave her a cold gaze

She wasn't focusing on though

, she was so lonely, she had nothing, but she was still smiling.

I had everything I ever wanted, money friends and I'm the smartest girl in the grade, confusion and anger filled up my mind.tears challenged my eyes and tried to get through, but I knew it was a dumb reason to cry

To feel frustrated,

Paranoid.

But with a hard stare i lifted my arm and sharply hit my marker with a bam on the desk, it grabbing attention and started spilling ink out the marker. I paid attention to that girl, she tried to ignore me but she finally looked at me,more like a glance her lip was quivering and she gulped,she was scared, she was at the verge of crying, i smiled

but I snapped out as the teacher started shouting at me about how I disrupted the class and made a mess.

And i just rolled my eyes and layed in my seat

They flinched and stared at my sudden action. The girl was drawing in her book and sitting on a bench. She was still happy and my brain went blank. My feelings and my wants came into full control

I didn't know what I was doing.

I stood in front of her.

She flinched and when she saw me her face turned white. She was scared. I punched the wall behind her. My knuckles started bleeding and my eyes teared.

I yelled at her and asked

"why are you so happy all the time? You have nothing you're lonely and a loser." she started shaking and couldn't look at me. She said in a quiet voice, as a whisper

"what's the point of being sad and angry all the time when it won't help me?

If I'm sad no one will care, nor do I want anyone to care."

she bit her lip as she waited for my reaction. She quickly glanced at me and took a deep shaky breath, and started to leave. I pushed her to the floor with a heavy amount of power , her knees hit the floor first ,she sat up with bleeding knees and on the verge of tears.

I said in a cold voice

"Loser"
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