Addicted to You *Tracob*

Routine

I give the boy sitting in front of me an unsure smile and go to my doctor's office. It's small and smells like wet paint.

"Hello, Troye. How have you been feeling?"

"The same." Is all I say.

"Okay, so let me go down the list." Ahh, the list. The list of why I am here. I close my eyes waiting for it to be read to me for the 28th time since I stepped into this hell hole. "Your anxiety?"

"I'm not feeling anxious."

"Depression?"

"Well I'm locked up in here, so how happy could I be." I force a smile.

"Have you been eating?"

"Yes." He looks at me with skepticism.

"Self-harm and suicidal thoughts?"

"Well, I can't kill myself in here so I guess it's okay."

"How about your addiction? Any cravings?"

"How do you think that's going," I say through gritted teeth.

"Troye, you need to be more co-operative with me. I can not let you go before I see improvements." I sigh.

"Okay, okay I will try." I lie.

"Okay, here is your medication." He hands me a small cup with water and a bright orange pill. I swallow it and open my mouth wide so he can see I actually took it.

"Okay Troye, I will see you tomorrow." I get up from his desk and head to the bathroom. I go into one of the stalls and stick my finger down my throat. Luckily, the pull comes up after a few heaves and I leave toward the lunchroom.

Zoe and Alfie are sitting with the new guy and I sigh. I grab a granola bar and check it's calories. It'll do.

I sit down with them and give them a soft hello.

"Hi, I'm Jacob." The new guy says as he lets out his hand for me to shake.

"Troye." Is all I say looking at the calories of the bar once more. I watch as he slowly takes his hand down. Zoe lips something to him but I can't tell what it is.

I slowly eat my granola bar as we sit in silence.

"We are going to go outside, do you want to come Troye?" Alfie asks and I shake my head.

"Not feeling too well, I think I am just going to lye down. Can you grab me when it's time to start group?"

"No problem," Zoe says and they go outside.

I slowly make my way into my room and lye on the scratchy bed sheets. I close my eyes and gently fall asleep.

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