everything I couldn't say

Sensitive

I've recently come to realize

It's become hard to ignore

The things that once didn't bother me

But now they've made me sore

Pushing the hurt away

Acting as if I don't mind

Putting on a fake smile

While everyone around me is blind

Not knowing how it is I feel

Not knowing if it ever was true

Trying to brush it off easily

Trying to make my way through

Ignoring the accusations

Pushing away the pain

They think it doesn't bother me

But really I'm going insane

I really do mean it this time

That I have lost all control

Hurting & Crying & Screaming

Trying to let it all go

I've tried to keep myself hidden

Tried to put up walls high

But shattering all to pieces

Falling from far too high

Procrastinating my happiness

Denying all my joy

Bruising myself internally

Tortured by all the noise

'They won't stop torturing me' I cry, in a suspensful bliss

A pain that brings me pleasure

Try to ignore, but it insists

I beg and beg and beg

For peace in my horrid brain

Thinking about trying, but beginning to refrain

Asking the good to come, but turning and running away

Hoping that I might be strong enough

Hopefully, one day

Sensitive is what I've become

But it's simply what I hate

I want to be hard and strong

I don't want to let them past the gate

The gate that encloses my feelings

Emotions and torturous plans

Instead of pushing my demons away, I say

'Eat your heart out my friend'