everything I couldn't say

My Un-Suicide Note

"I cannot handle it anymore.
This is not the life for me.
All I feel is down in the dumps.
Worthless is what I see;
In myself and myself only,
No one around me.

There's a better place for me,
Far beyond the sun.
There and only there,
Will I be relieved of the damage done.

Sadness is not for me.
There's a better life to live.
And I need to reach that life.
Leave this one to the pigs.

And no dear friend reading,
This is not my suicide note.
The complete opposite actually.
I've decided on the opposite cope.

I've made the decision to live happy.
Care-free amongst this world.
A weight no longer rests on my shoulders.
Despair will no longer control this young girl.

I'm now a different person.
I walk different,
I talk different,
I live different.

I didn't kill my body.
I killed all of my pain and sorrow.
So now I walk along with out it.
And I don't need happiness to borrow.
I have my own now.

So here it is my friend.
My Un-Suicide Note.
You might find it irrelevant.
But I wanted to let you know."

My life is not over.
It's just beginning. ~ M.R