Lost But Was It Found?

chapter 12

KIA’S POV

There was this really pretty bouquet of balloons that was set up near the elevator with a note attached on the strings. I took it off and it read-

~~hey, how do you like it so far? I know you love balloons so here they are. Pick any one of these and come to the terrace am sure after the last surprise you won’t be mad or sad any more. 

p.s- I believe in second chances, what about you?~~

“Ivy, are you here? Common now how much more do I have to wait when I already know it’s you? Besides I am not even sad or mad as you say any more” I giggled at her choice of words. “Please cut the drama girl!” I said aloud hoping to bring her out of hiding.

No response.

I guess I will have to play along to see what she wants me to know.

Sometimes I feel she totally goes over the top with such things, like how she ordered a life size cake for her younger brother’s birthday and made his favorite cartoon character pop out form it holding the actual cake.

Even though that truly made little Ben’s day we all thought the whole cake thing was way too much considering Ben turned only six that day. However no one can beat Ivy in caring about the ones she truly loves and I guess I am one of those. Lucky me.

I love her like a sister, and to think we met in the girl's washroom where i was bawling my eyes out and she came and comforted me. I couldn't help but smile at that memory. 

Everything that happens with us in our lives always happens for a reason.

I truly believe so, it may feel like the worst thing to happen at that moment but trust me there’s always a greater good behind even that particular bad.

Yup, ‘greater good’ what can I say I almost worship Dumbledore.  Hehe

Like right now, how the whole Eden thing made me so upset, but it also made me realize that I do consider Eden to be really special and that is why he could hurt me. I got so carried away with his looks and a small little crush that I now have really started feeling more for him, that is the sole reason I broke down when I saw him and Sienna together.

 I mean why should I be so affected right? Sure I like him but he isn’t my boyfriend or anything.

So what should i do?

No, I shouldn’t go to him and confess my feelings or whatever, rather run away in the opposite direction as soon as possible.

Why?

Because I don’t do relationships. Simple and clear.

I never believed in one.

Be it my family or my friends, except Ivy that is, some how she is the only one that has made me confident enough to trust her and follow our true friendship.

Apart from her I can’t trust or be with any one above the average fake level.

I don’t feel the need to express feelings and neither am I any good at accepting other’s feelings, like how all the guys who have asked me out so far have never been able to go ahead with me at all, and the persistent one’s have never got a chance to take me on a second date.

No, I am not crazy or anything I promise. I just don’t understand how can you trust somebody  when every person on this planet is different from what you are?  How can you love someone unconditionally when there are conditions and rules that both the individuals have to follow in the relation?