You Are my Light

🔪 C H A P T E R 3 🔪

'Yuuri?'
I hear a voice call sweetly.

I immediately drop the blade that I was holding.
'Viktor?' I quietly call back. "Yuuri! Are you okay!? You scared me so much, did you have a panic attack? What's wrong?" Viktor asks worriedly. I stay quiet my heart rate going through the roof. I can feel the connection to him but I don't know how to separate my thoughts from talking to him yet. 'Yuuri? I know what you said, I mean, you didn't say it to me, you meant to say it to yourself but failed miserably,' He spoke into my head.

....

'Yuuri? You still there? Do you want to talk? I think we should because it feels like your starting to have another panic attack,' He explains softly. I feel my face heat up slightly at his caring words.

'...I-I- I don't know what to say, I-I guess I was just, I- I don't know!' I respond, conflicted if I should tell him. I tugged at my hair in frustration. 'Yuuri you know you can tell me how you feel right? I will understand. I'm guessing that your afraid to talk to me because you have harmed yourself and you're scared that I might reject you because of it. If so then, I'm not mad. If anything it makes me want to protect you from anyone who's causing you harm.' He reassured me trying to calm me down.

'I really needed that Viktor, you read my mind' I say to him, calming down and taking slow deep breaths to even out my breathing.

'No problem I had a hunch since when you would cut I could feel that you felt guilty and I didn't piece it together until just now,' Viktor said.

'Your hunch was weirdly accurate,' I spoke in a playful tone. I feel a wave of exhaustion blanket my whole being.

'Yuuri it seems as though you've had a long day, I would love to chat more but I don't want you to pass out whilst we're talking,' he spoke with humor in his voice as well as affection.

'I want to stay up and talk as well but I'm also afraid I'm going to pass out,' I say tiredly.

'We'll talk tomorrow, I promise.' I could practicality hear his smile. And just like that, I fell into a deep sleep.

(The Next Day)

I woke up feeling fresh and energized. It's been a while since I've had this much energy and a full nights sleep. 'Good morning Yuurrri~' I heard cheerful Russian voice ring through my head.

I smiled softly to myself as I spoke, 'Good morning Viktor.' I greeted him back. I get up and open my curtains as I felt the sun, shine on me I began to feel a wave of uncertainty, not coming from me but from Viktor. It felt like he was contemplating something.

'What's wrong? Something on your mind?' I ask, hoping that he'll tell me what was on his mind.

'O- oh- um well I don't want you to feel any discomfort but now that you asked, why do you cut yourself? I-I don't mean to offend you or anything it's just that I-I kind of want t-to protect you.' Viktor explains shyly.

'Omg his voice when he's stuttering is adorable!' I think blushing slightly at my thoughts.

'You do know that I can hear you, right? Thanks for the compliment though.' Viktor stated with his confidence back. My face almost immediately heated up at his words.

'E-eh!? S-sorry I just co-couldn't contain myself' I stuttered out.

I hear Viktor chuckle. That's such a beautiful sound. 'I want to be the reason he smiles and laughs.'

'...I can still hear you..' Viktor shyly says. I feel my face burn. I make a very VERY unnatural sound as I stuffed my face into my pillow. 'It's okay I was just caught off guard a bit,' Viktor says in an attempt to get me to calm down. I then realize that I have been busy talking to Viktor when I'm supposed to be getting ready for school.