My poems....IN BOOK FORM!

Are you ok?

"Yes"
I say with a manufactured smile
Because I know you're only asking out of courtesy
So I'm just going to help you check off your box
"I'm fine"
I say because you wouldn't like my real answer
You just want me to be happy
I suppose that means you care about me in some way
But I thought I was allowed to be unhappy
And you would still love me anyways
I'm sorry that my sadness disappoints you
I'm sorry that I can't be the happy person I once was
Because I love you
And I hate to disappoint you
So when you ask,
"Are you ok?"
I'll throw on my Oscar winning smile and say,
"Of course! Why wouldn't I be?"
Because it's better that you think we're both happy
Rather than me making us both miserable
For your sake,
I can "be ok" just for today