Lets Just Hope

Chapter 20

☆Ava's POV☆

I woke up and felt better than yesterday.Daddy was still holding me.I felt childish calling him that.I just could never stop calling him that."Daddy wake up."I said."I've been awake for a while now."He said and opened his eyes.I had eyes just like him.They change color.I was the only one who ended up with those eyes."Well what do you want to do today since everyone is gone?"He asked."I guess just talk for right now."I said."Ava are you scared when i'm not around?Be honest."He asked."Yeah."I whispered.I never knew why I was scared when he wasn't around."Hey I got something for you."He said snd we went downstairs.He grabbed a little pink box and handed to me.I opened the box and a gold necklace with a golden heart laying inside.It had lettering on the back.It said:

I'll always love you baby girl.

♡Dad

"Open the heart."He said.I opened it to find a small picture of dad holding me when I was born.Then there was another one that was just a couple months ago.Mom took the photo and dad had me on his shoulders and I was wearing one of his old t-shirts."Here let me help you put it on."He said and put the necklace around my neck.I hugged him."Thank you daddy."I said.We let go and sat on the couch."So whenever you feel scared you know i'm just a call away.But if I can't be with you then just look at that heart."He said."I never want you to die daddy."I said."Hey,who said I was going to die?"He asked."I never want to go to school because I think you could die some how."I said."It's summer."He said.I forgot that a couple days ago was the last day!(Just go with it.OH and Ava is 15 because that was just her dream where she was 16.)I snuggled up next to him and we stayed quiet as hours passed by.Then I got up."Tell me everything you think about mom."I said."Well Ava I really don't know."He said."Why were you and mom never happy.I've been told that after I was born you and mom got into big fights.Was I the reason?"I asked.

*Joey's POV*

I can't believe she would think that."Baby girl-"She cut me off."Don't you baby girl me!Was I the reason this family isn't always together?"She asked and a tear ran down her face."I don't know Ava!"I yelled.I started crying myself."I made your mom the way she is by cheating!"I yelled."I-I'm sorry."Ava said.Jenna walked through the door."The kids aren't home yet?"She asked.I nodded."I'm going to hang out with Ryder."Ava said and walked out.

*Ava's POV*

I knocked on the door.Ryder opened the door."Hey!We uh...need to talk."He said.I walked in."We need to break up."He said."I don't want to break your heart so I feel this is the only way.I'm sorry Ava."He said."I-It's ok.Well bye."I said and walked out.I ran across the street as fast as I could and I cried.He was not mine anymore.I opened the door and ran inside.Dad knew what happened.I ran into my room and slammed the door shut.I ripped all the love notes and cute drawings that he gave me the past couple months.I just sat on my bed and cried.Dad walked in.He gave me a hug.

It was the next day."He's dead."Sawyer said."What?"Dad asked."Ryder k-killed himself.He left a note for you Ava.We'll walk over there together."He said and we walked over to his house.We went in the house and went into Ryder's room.Addy was crying.I picked the note up from the floor.It said:

This is for Ava Hope Graceffa only.Ava I couldn't live knowing I broke your heart.I'm sorry it's like this.You didn't make me kill myself.It was my choice.I hope you have a great job and a wonderful family.Goodbye.

-Ryder

I was sitting on the floor crying.I got up and not one word was spoke as I walked out.I walked across the street.I opened the door.I went up to my room.I closed the door behind me.I didn't rip the most beautiful note that he wrote.I read it again.

Ava I know we'll be together forever and I mean it.I love you more than any other girl in the world.If we ever are seprated I want you to know I love you.I'm not just saying that,I mean it.Who thought we'd ever be together?I still find it funny after a month.Remember that your beautiful,amazing,smart,pretty,funny,cute,adorable and I LOVE YOU!

Love,

-Ryder

"He really loved you baby girl.He told Sawyer about you every day.He said he's never seen him be so in love with one girl."Daddy said.He sat next to me on my bed."He's gone now."I said."I know."He said."He said he wanted me to have the best life ever basically."I said."He said forever daddy.He told me he loved me.I really wish he was still here."I said."Forever is used too much and it isn't always like that.I told your mother that."He said.

I haven't eaten in two days.I never feel hungry anymore.I feel sad all the time.I don't want to get out of bed anymore.I don't know what has happened to me.I couldn't be going through depression.Could I be going through that?Maybe.I'm not sure.

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I'm kinda upset.I also feel like I did something stupid that caused something which i'm pretty sure isn't true.I'm sorry it's shorter than usual but i'm not feeling that good about wattpad anymore.I just don't think i belong on here.Sad.I know but it just doesn't feel right anymore.And i haven't been on here for even a year.But something just really changed my mind about it.Ok bye.

~Jenna

(I'm not putting twitter you should know by now.)