Lets Just Hope

Chapter 18 Moving and Forgiving

☆Ava's POV☆

We were moving.Which sucks but that's my fucked up life.I just have to deal with it."Ava!"Dad yelled and I rushed downstairs.We all somehow got in dad's car."I'm sorry your life is like this Ava."Dad said and I sighed."Yeah, I am too."I said."You know I just...don't want your life to be like mine when I was your age."He said.He didn't say another word."But it may end up like that."He mumbled probably hoping no one would hear but I did."Nice to know you hope."I said."I wish you weren't such a smart ass at times."He said."Well it's not my fucking fault you and mom get into a fight every two hours!"I yelled.He stayed silent.He knew exactly what I was talking about.We arrived at Meghan's."Ava-"Dad tried to say but I cut him off."Just shut up ok."I said."Kids go inside and talk to Meghan.I need to talk to Ava."He said.

Dad:"I can't control what you mom does ok? So don't go blaming it on me!"

Me:"If you didn't have so many fights with her maybe she would be happy!"

Dad:"Ava I try everything I can to make your life better and doesn't help when you put me down!"

Me:"I HATE YOU OK?"

I ran inside the house and ran into the room I was staying in and slammed the door shut.He walked in.He face stained with tears.I didn't even feel sorry for him."I try Ava.I try."He said."And I try because I'm the oldest.You've never been the oldest before so you don't understand what i'm going through and plus you aren't a girl."I said."Mom just isn't happy at the moment so she turns to drugs."He said."Then why aren't you helping her?"I asked."I can't.For the past sixteen years I've tried but I just realized there's no way to stop her sadly.You know how her life was."Dad said in quite voice."I know."I whispered.I wish mom had a better life but sadly she didn't.I started crying.I don't know why."Baby girl do you want to sleep with me tonight?"He asked and I nodded.

*Joey's POV*

(IM ON MY COMPUTER!)

Ava fell asleep in my arms.She is growing up now and she's going through a lot.I picked her up and took her to my room.I layed her down on the bed and kissed her forehead."Goodnight my angel."I said and layed next to her.I honestly only wanted to have only Ava as my child.I loved the rest but not as much as Ava.

*The Next Day*

I woke up to Ava's bright green eyes staring into mine."Morning sweetheart."I said."Morning daddy."She said in her sweet voice.She has a mostly country voice because of Jenna.She's the only one who has a country voice."You woke up late.I woke up about two hours ago."She said.I looked at the clock.It was 10:34.I got up and Ava went somewhere else.Jenna called me five times last night.I listened to the voicemail.Then the last one wanted me to run and find Jenna and hug her.

Voicemail #1:"Joey please call me as soon as you can!I need you!"

Voicemail #2:"Joey i'm not drinking anymore! I swear!Please call back!"

Voicemail #3:"Please Joey! It's my mom!"

Voicemail #4:"I'm sorry but please call me!"

Voicemail #5:"My mom is dead.Thanks for being there for me Joey."

I cried.How could I?I felt terrible.Ava came into the room."W-What happened?"She asked.I sat down on the bed and sighed."I uh..wasn't there for your mom.Grandma died last night and I wasn't there to hold your mom and tell her everything would be ok."I said."Oh."She said.She sat on my lap since she wasn't that big but she wasn't that small either."Oh I wish you could be little again baby girl."I said and sighed."So you can re-live the fights you and mom had?"She asked."Haha.No so I could see you grow into the beautiful lady you are today."I said."No wonder mom fell in love with you."She said and kissed my cheek and went downstairs.Ava remids me of Jenna.Jenna's family mostly is country so she has the accent but also a little Boston.Just like Ava.I jumped up.I need to talk to Jenna!I ran downstairs and told Meghan I needed to go.I knew Ava was smiling as I walked out.

*At Home*

I walked up to the door and opened it."Jenna!"I yelled.I ran upstairs to our room.I looked in the bathroom to see Jenna sobbing.She was cutting.I took the blade away from her and she fell into my arms."Just leave me Joey.I don't deserve you."She said."Jenna,I know it's difficult but we'll survive.Now clean up."I said and snatched the blade from the counter and threw it in the trash.I wish I could fix her somehow but some things you just can't fix.She walked into the room.She looked weak.We sat on the bed together."I-I'm sorry Joey."She said."No I'm sorry for being an idiot and leaving you."I said."But your my idiot."She said and giggled."Oh why did we have seven children?"I asked."Don't you mean eight."She said."Remind me next time we have sex because I'm done with the baby shit."I said.Jenna laughed."I wanna name it Addyson."She said."Umm....how about Zach?"I suggested."Yeah."Jenna said and sat on my lap facing me."You wanna celebrate?"She asked pushing me down on the bed."Is it ok with the doctor?"I  asked."Yeah."She said.I kissed her.

*Jenna's POV*
(Sorta graphic? Idk)
Joey kissed me roughly.He slipped off his shirt.He tried to take off mine but I smacked his hand away."You first."I said and Joey took the rest of his clothes off then he went for mine."I love you so much Jenna."Joey said then kissed me again."I love you too Joey."I said.We were both naked but all we did was kiss nothing more than that.All we did was kiss and let are hands wander.I think we were scared of what would happen if we went farther."You know it's funny how we used to be best friends so long ago and now here we are."Joey said and I smiled and kissed him again.I remember how jealous I was of Cat back then when Joey and her were dating.I sometimes laugh at that memory.When Joey and I got married all I thought was that I was going to have sex with my best friend.I laughed a little."What?"Joey asked."Did you ever realize you're having sex with your best friend that you've been friends with since you were five?"I asked."Yeah but I got over it a long time ago.'He said and we kissed again.This time our tongues were involved.(I'm so sorry if you're weirded out by this.)I moaned as Joey kissed down my neck then back up to my lips.I swear it felt like days passed by.We broke apart and just stared at each other for a while."Jenna,I want you to know even if were not together I will always love you."He said."I love you Joeseph Micheal Graceffa."I said."I love you Jenna Christine Graceffa."Joey said.We both smiled.

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I wrote the longest fucking chap ever!And i'm sorry about the last part.I know i suck but idk.So yeah i got the fucking giggles when i wrote this.IDK why.Well luv ya byyyee!

~Jenna

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