Lets Just Hope

Chapter 19 Funeral

☆Ava's POV☆

Mom was crying as Michael layed on the hostpital bed.Dead.How he ended up here was that he got in a car accident.Sawyer was taking him to a baseball game and someone,who was drunk,crashed into them.Sawyer is still alive.Sawyer came in."I-I'm so sorry Jenna."He said."I-It's not your fault Sawyer.It never will be."She said.Dad went over to her and hugged her."Hey you guys come out here."Addy said and all of us went out of the room except Sawyer,Mom,and Dad.I got so many twitter notifications.

Not_Jenna_Bigby:@Ms.Ava_Graceffa So sorry about your brother. : (

Psychopath_4_Life:@Ms.Ava_Graceffa So so sorry about your bro! : (

I slid down the wall and I was crying.I had about 500 followers and they all said the same thing.It sucked losing your brother.He may not have been my favorite but I loved him."I'm going home."I said and stood up and walked down the long white hallway with paintings hanging on the walls.I walked out to my car and just sat in it for about five minutes.Why did god take an innocent person?Just why?I started the car and drove home.I stopped in the driveway.Why couldn't it be me?I started crying.I got out of the car and slammed the door.Ryder,Sawyer's son,ran up to me."Hey Ava!"He yelled.He walked closer to me.We've been best friends since first grade."Hey."He said.He lived across the street."What's up Ava?"He asked and he wiped away a tear rolling down my face."It doesn't matter."I said."I don't care if your crying over your nail breaking.What's wrong?"He asked and we sat on the porch steps."Well Micheal died in the car wreak your dad was in."I said and he pulled me into a hug.I cried into his chest and he pulled me closer."Always know I'm here and i'll always care."He said."Thank you Ry."I said and stood up."Hey uh..want to come inside and watch movies for a while?"I asked."Yeah.Of course"He said and wrapped an arm around my shoulder as we walked inside.He understood what I was going through.We sat on the couch together."Oh we should watch an old movie my mom and dad were in!"I said as I looked through the movies."How about 'If I stay'?"I asked."Yeah sure."He said.I put the movie in and sat on the couch next to him."Why do you wear baggy clothes all the time?"He asked."I think I'm fat."I said."You are nothing close to that!*Stands up and looks at Ava*You're beautiful,smart,amazing,cute,funny,and I love you because you are you!"He said.I stood up and looked at him.Did he say he loved me?He kissed me.It lasted for about a second until we broke apart.We started giggling like idiots."So when you said you loved me did you mean it?"I asked."Of course but do you love me?"He asked."I really can't say love Ry.I just can't."I said.We were silent for a second."It's fine Ava.Not everyone is ready at first."He said.(LOL i thought he was talking about sex for some reason.Even though I'm writing it.XD)I kissed him again.

(IM ON MY COMPUTER AGAIN!)

*Joey's POV*

"Haha Sawyer.Like they would be together."I said."Hey it could happen."He said."Hey thanks for dropping me off Sawyer."I said and walked up to the door and opened it.Ava and Ryder were kissing."Hey!"I yelled."Oh um."Ava said."Ryder out!"I yelled and he walked out."What the hell was that about?"Ava asked."I know he's been with so many girls and broken their hearts and I don't want you dating boys only if I approve."I said."Dad I'm not your baby girl anymore!I can make my own decisions!And I'm going to be with Ryder weather you like it or not!"She said."Hell no your not!Your grounded for a month and you can only go out of the house for school!"I said."Fuck you!"She yelled and ran upstairs.I'm just trying to protect her.

*Ava's POV The next day*

Ryder held my hand.I wore a black lacy dress.Mom told dad he was being stupid and she finally got him to be ok with us being together.I layed a rose on the grave which held my brother inside.I didn't look back because if I did I would start sobbing.We walked away.I just wish he was still here."Ava go be with your dad he needs someone right now.I'll see you tomorrow."He said and kissed my cheek and walked away.I turned around and sighed.I looked at dad.He was still standing by Micheal's grave,crying.I've seen him cry before but not this much.I walked over to him and hugged him."A-Ava h-he's.."Dad tried to say."I know."I said.We let go and walked away.He grabbed me by the waist and spun me around."I love you baby girl."He said and put me down and kissed my cheek.(I love when he says that!)"I love you Daddy."I said and he started to tear up."Baby girl if I'm ever mad at you just remember I love you no matter what.Even if you get pregnat in a month i'll still love you and support you.You remember that ok?"He said."Daddy I don't want to grow up!"I said."The fact that you still call me daddy proves that."He said."I just don't."I said."Hey that's the future.We're living in the present.Focus on that instead."He said.My stomach started hurting really bad all the sudden."Is it that time of the month?"He asked.I nodded and he picked me up and carried me to the car.Stupid cramps.

*Joey's POV*

I was in normal clothes."Hey i'll take care of Ava,you don't have to worry about it."I said."You really care about her a lot,don't you Joey?"Jenna asked."Yeah."I said and went into Ava's room.Boy band posters were taped onto the wall along with cute photos of the family.There was a frame with a photo of Ava and me.Ava was eight.We were at Disney for the first time.The frame said:I love us.I smiled as I stared at the picture."Do you like the picture?"Ava asked in a weak voice."Yeah.Do you need anything baby girl?"I asked."Can you lay with me?"She asked."Of course."I said and layed down next to Ava.She snuggled against my chest and held her."Why do you call me baby girl all the time?"She asked."Because you are my baby girl."I said and kissed her forehead."Why do you only treat me like this?"She asked."Because secretly your my favorite."I said."Can you sing daddy?"She asked."Of course."I said.I sang 'Story of my life'.Ava was still awake.She started crying."Hey,hey what's wrong?"I asked."I never want to grow up or be alone.I want to be with you daddy."She said.I started to tear up a little.She would always say that she always wanted to be with me when she was younger."Hey.You want to stay home tomorrow and we can have a daddy and Ava day."I said.Ava never saw a good relationship between two people or seen growing up as a good thing or seen the world as a good place.She's scared half to death of what will happen to her when she grows up.Like if she'll be loved right or if she'll be abused and be too afraid to tell anyone.I pulled her closer to me."I don't want you to grow up either baby girl."I sighed.I wish I showed the good things in life instead of the bad.

~Flashback~

"Well I'm sorry that I'm not good enough for you!"I yelled at Jenna.Seven year old Ava peeked around the corner."Baby girl let me take you to bed."I said and held Ava's little hand as we walked up the old steps.She crawled into bed when we got in her room."Why do you and mommy fight?"She asked."Baby girl you wouldn't understand."I said.

~End of Flashback~

Ava was asleep in my arms.That's the only place she felt safe.She only felt safe when I was with her.She was terrified when I wasn't around but she didn't act like it because she didn't want people to think she was a baby.I wish she could be by my side forever.She would never be scared again."Goodnight baby girl."I said and kissed her forehead and fell asleep myself.

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Hey! I just give random dedications to my followers! I hope you now understand why Ava acts the way she does now because she seemed a little like a baby.I'm sorry that I killed one of the kids! IDK why I did that!Well luv ya guys!OMG ALMOST 4K ON FSS!!!Ok bye!

~Jenna

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