Bad Boys Don't go To Heaven ⚣ 「 bc + yji 」

08

Recap:

"Well, when I was really little I drew a picture of myself marrying a boy." Jeongin told the older, who giggled at what he had just learned. But Jeongin wasn't giggling.

"I brought it home to show my mom. And she ripped it to shreds and told me a man could never marry another man. And that I must marry a beautiful woman in the future." He confessed.

"Holy shit. How old were you?" Chan asked, sitting up and resting his head against his palm.

"Like four or five." Jeongin responded.

"No wonder you're so terrified of being gay." Chan said.

"I was." Jeongin stated abruptly.

"Was?" Chan questioned, raising his eyebrow at the younger.

Jeongin finally turned and looked at the older blonde haired boy.

He sat up and placed his hand against Chan's cheek, pulling him in for a short kiss.

Pulling back, he said simply, "was."

With that, Chan smiled and kissed the younger again, pushing him to lay down against the mattress.

They could both get used to this.

~~~

Jeongin and Chan laid on Jeongin's bed making out for what felt like hours.

Jeongin couldn't help but admit to himself that, yes, he did like boys. It was a terrifying thing for him to admit to himself, but trying to force himself to believe something that isn't true was incredibly exhausting.

He found it rather sad that it took having Chan force him to accept himself for who he was for he to finally come to terms with it. The older boy didn't exactly do it very slowly or nicely, but it still got the job done.

"Jeongin." The older called out as he pulled back.

"Hmm?" Jengibre responded.

" I know that I'm the one who was trying to force you to come out to yourself. But, I don't know how you can come out to your mom." He said. "I mean, hearing about what she did, I don't think it would end very well."

"I will never come out to my mom." Jeongin said, matter of fact.

Chan was taken aback. "What?"

"You don't understand, Chan-" Chan cut him off. "Oh I don't understand?! You have no idea the things that I lost from coming out to my family! But I still did it because I'm not ashamed of who I am!"

"I'm not ashamed anymore." Jeongin stated.

"But let me guess, you're still going to marry a woman?" Chan asked.

Jeongin remained silent. "If that's what my mom wants-"

"Fuck what she wants! Is that what you want?" Chan asked expressively.