Blood and Roses

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August 10th, 2010

Dear Old Friend, 

I got away. I'm free finally. I haven't wrote in so long. I was in the hospital recovering. Basically I shouldn't be alive. He took me to a rose field. Roses are my favorite. He always knew that. He let me walk around a bit. Let me take in the beauty of them. I turned around and he had a big smile on his face. He said seeing you smile about roses makes me remember why I fell in love with you. He looked me dead in the face and mouthed I'm sorry. I was confused of what was going on. He pulled out a gun and shot me. I fell back in the roses. My vision went black and I don't remember after that. I woke up feeling sharp pain in my stomach. It all came back to me. He tried to kill me. It failed. I crawled all the way to the street and waited for someone to drive by. I was in the middle of nowhere I was hopeless. Finally someone drove by and gave me a ride to the nearest hospital. The doctors were shocked that I even lived. They said I should have died. He tried to kill me. He is a horrible monster. I can't believe he did all he did to me. I'm so happy I'm away from him. I kinda wish I would have died tho. 

-Ashlyn 

August 15th, 2010 

Dear Diary, 

Matt never got found nor arrested. He's still out there. What if he knows I'm alive. What if he finds me again. I'm sure he never will but its scary to think about. I want to get back into the dating world but after everything I don't know if I can. I'm young. I shouldn't be scared to date. I should have never gone through what I went through. I'm sure I'll be okay eventually. 

-Ash

August 22nd, 2010

Dear Diary, 

I hate looking at my body. He ruined my body. He put scars all over me. He made me hate my body. He made me hate me. He ruined me. I hate him. It may have only been four months but he did a lot to a young girl in four months. I let myself fall for him. Its my fault. 

-Ash

September 1st, 2010

Dear Diary, 

There is this really cute guy at my school but I don't know if I could ever go for him. He so nice to me and he flirts with me all the time. Matt was always nice to me tho. I might go for it. I'm tired of living in fear. I wanna have fun and have a boyfriend. I wanna have a normal life. Matt is gone and he can't hurt me anymore. You know what, I'm gonna go for it. I'm gonna get his number. 

-Ash