Friends | KookV FF BOOK 2

Chapter 14 - "As Long As I Have You"

*TAEHYUNG'S POV ON*

"J-Jungkook." We backed away from the kiss to catch our breaths but Jungkook quickly crashed our lips together again. This time his hand was placed on my cheek as he deepened the kiss.
I was startled for some moments as he kissed me again but this time the kiss held another feeling, longing. I wrapped my arms around his neck as I started kissing back. We shifted as closer as we could, seeing that we were inside the car. Jungkook rested one hand on my thigh as the other hand was caressing my cheek.
The kiss got heated when Jungkook bit my lower lip and entered his tongue inside my mouth, exploring the already explored wet cavern. I gasped when he started rubbing his manly and soft hand on my thigh, he made some circles and dangerously got closer to my intimate part. I was so immersed in the kiss that I couldn't find in me the power to stop him. The kiss got more heated and I found myself being pulled to Jungkook's lap, but before he could place me on his lap, I pulled back from the kiss.

"J-Jungkook, what are you doing?" I sat properly on the seat and looked down to my fidgeting fingers.

"What do you mean, Tae?" Jungkook asked with confusion all over his face but I couldn't see it since I was looking down.

"You are engaged, Jungkook. You can't do this, we can't do this." I looked up at his eyes, he looked sad at my words.

"Tae, I-"

"I just don't want to develop feelings for you and end up hurt again. I know you love her and you look good together but please don't hurt me again." I sadly said playing with the hem of my jacket out of nervousness.

"Tae, I don't love her. My dad forced me to marry her or else he wouldn't give me anything, not even the company that I didn't want in the first place. I accepted even though I didn't want it. My dad was going through a bad moment so I did it to make him a little bit happy. Sun-Hi can be good sometimes but I don't love her, she sometimes likes to kiss me when we are in front of people just to keep the farse. My heart is unable to love anyone besides y-"

"Jin already told me about you being forced into it but Jungkook, you need to understand my side. I can't kiss you or do anything knowing that you are engaged. You won't cancel it just like that. You did it for your father, I don't want to ruin it. He doesn't even know his son likes men too." I looked out of the window, the dimly lit streets mirroring my heart in that moment. Dark and sad.

"I would do anything for you, Tae. I would go against this engagement and my dad just so I could kiss you everyday." Jungkook reached forward and grabbed my hands, giving it a little squeeze.

"You can't do that, you will disappoint your dad." I looked down at our intertwined hands and I did my best to hide a smile from creeping on my face. Jungkook lifted my chin making me look at him, my heart fluttered when I saw he had his bunny smile full on display. How can he be so sexy and cute at the same time? How is that possible? I just want to kiss all over his face and hug him.

"I don't care as long as I have you." Jungkook leaned forward closing the gap inch by inch. Before he could kiss me, I backed away taking his hand from my chin. He looked sad but I had to do it.

"We can't kiss because you are engaged. You need to figure out what you want in your life and then talk to me. Meanwhile, we are just friends. I have to go now, let's talk another time." I gave him a small smile before opening the door and get out. I didn't even give him time to answer because there's nothing he can say now that will change anything.

I sigh as soon as I lay down on my comfy bed, what a day. I didn't really expect Jungkook to kiss me out of nowhere. Even though he is engaged, I didn't even try to stop what was happening until I saw what could happen. It just felt right when we kissed and he touched me. It was like my body and mind were deeply craving for his touch. They clouded my mind and I just kissed back. I don't really regret it because Jungkook said he doesn't love her. He said he would do anything for me. But will he do anything for me? Will he go against his father and end that fake engagement? I should probably stop thinking about this or else I will fill my heart with hopes. I don't want to end up disappointed and hurt.
No matter what I have said to myself countless times for years, I still feel something for Jungkook. Not the love I had for him when we dated but a special feeling. He was my first in everything and it makes him really special to me. He is the only one that can make my heart beat loud, making it seem like it might explode. He is the only one that makes me feel really special and unique.
I really like Jungkook but I won't let him play with my heart. He can't kiss me and then get married to another person just like that. He said all those sweet things to me so he needs to keep up with his words. If he doesn't end things then I will definitely move on and find someone to be happy.