【Outlet】| Original Oneshot Book

【Fyun's curse】

Day 1,

She's gone from me. I'll move on but much longer than when we were together. I know because i am Fyuchan. That's what mama always says, i can't predict the past or future, time moves forward and absolutely waits for no one, they just go foward no matter who or what. But, i can analyze the world around me, and create a hypothesis of what is going to happen next. And my hypothesis is..in 1-2 years, she'll be out of my mind, and the next thing i'll think about are boys and friends. Like a normal girl should.

Day 53,

For some reason, i had doubts but at this point in time. I shouldn't because my hypothesis was correct, she's...still here...in my heart...
Living longer than our Anncha...oh Anncha..i hope you wake up again baby...i admit..i really want her to come back..so please Anncha..wake up again like last time so she'll come back..please..i need her Anncha..
She somehow still lives in my heart...please..i won't let her light knock you out again..i promise..

Day 82

It's almost the end of this month..why can't i let go..? Anncha's gone..
I've accepted that fact but..why do i still feel like she's alive..? That she'll wake up again and she'll be back in my arms..lovingly hugging me..
I miss you dear...i hope you'll come back to me and kiss my forehead and say "i love you"...what am i doing?!

Day 85

She was nothing more than a liar and a slut.
A slut. A whore and a bad person...

Day 196

Hating her will not bring Anncha back..that's what mother has told me..
I saw her again..with a boy..Edward and Dmitry..i created a new hypothesis..She's going to end up with Edward...He was getting more attention and touches than Dmitry or Tiff..it boils my blood but..why should i be angry..?..it was my fault for letting go so easily...
Edward..please take good care of her..if you don't..Anncha would be very sad..all i can do now is try to keep her happy...making her happier than you..

Day 329

200 days...it's been 200 days...it's almost our anniversary...she's...still here in my heart...mother says i've changed..i became quieter about her and more submissive..well..that's what other people say..but deep inside..i'm still screaming for her..i'm still screaming for Anncha to be alive and be back in our arms as we love each other even more than before...thank god my hypothesis didn't come true...but..i haven't won yet. But i know, no matter what, i will never win again like last time..

Day 330...

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Day 331

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Day 365...

It's been a while journal..but..i thank you for being there in my days of this imaginary curse i call "flowers"...for some reason..i still love Anon...
But..i've accepted that she won't be with me. My desperation and heartbreak grew to nothing but indifference..heh..Anon Luminary..i hope you're happy, even if i disappear..i hope...no one will break your heart and you won't break theirs in return.

Good bye feelings.
It's time for you to rest now Anncha..

I'm off to the next educational heart break.
Thank you.
For being a great lover..

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Okii explanation time.

Fyun and Anon were a lesbian couple, Anncha is their "child" aka the representation of their love for each other. Fyun and Anon eventually broke up and Fyun was so incredibly heartbroken that she ridiculed her own feelings and simply reduced it as a "curse" to her. Edward and Dmitry are Anon's friends but Fyun sees them as "the ones who beat her" even though nothing really happened between Edward and Anon or with Dmitry.

But, eventually, Fyun lets go, she's tired of crying for Anon, she's tired of getting disappointed by herself over and over again and lets go of Anon, cutting all contact with her.

I hope you enjoyed~!