Difficult Love (Ziall Fanfiction)

Chapter 5: He Is The Cockslut

~Things can't never be hiden forever.~

☆Zayn's Pov☆

I couldn't say a word after that declaration. Harry was standing still staring at me, and Perrie had her arms crossed. I didn't know what scared me the most. To know that my band mate, and one of the people that I spend most time with may be after my Willy, or the fact that my girlfriend followed two of my best mates and evesdroped to their conversation.

-"I told you, Zayn, he is after you! You have to keep your distance!"-

My distance, from Niall? There is no fucking way in this world 'am ever going to do that. He has always been there for me and I will never leave him alone. I don't care aboit his sexuality or anything like that.

-"What?! Perrie, you know I can't do that! He is my mate! I definately won't leave him!"-

-"You prefer him over me?!"-

Perrie was almost screaming, and Harry was standing still like a rock. I wanted to scream back at her, but I wont do that. 'Am polite, or at least more polite and educate than her right now.

-"Honey, you know I love you, but I need to speak with him first. I have to know what does he have to say"- Perrie looked mad, but she calmed down. Or that's what I though...

-"...Just...don't "honey" me right now...I need my space, ok?"-

Oh Gosh...This isn't good...She had such a weird change of humor. Is she on her days or something? Why is she acting like this? She nows I love her more than anything else. This is not good. I don't want to end my relationship with her, and only for such a foolish thing like that.

-"Babe I-"-

-"No Zayn, It's ok."-

She gave me a hug, with helped me to relax. I though she was going to break up with me.

-"I just don't like seeing you around I guy who wants to take you away from me"- I didn'd said I word after that, I just didn't want to argue anymore about that topic. It's so stupid and childlish! She just leved the studio. Harry desapered. I guess it isn't a good idea for me to go to his place. This just took me out of mood for everything. Should I ask Niall about this? No, better if I don't...If this is true, and he just told Liam, that means he is going to tell me in the future. I have to wait until he is ready to tell me.

I tried to ignore the most importanta thing Perrie said: 《And your slut friend, isn't after whoever offers him his dick, oh no. He is after YOURS.》

After me...even when I stoped thinking about it, I though things wouldn't be the same around Niall. If that is true, I shuld be unconfortable or something, but for me nothing has changed at all. Only the probably option of he being gay, but for me that isn't a problem. I felt a unknown weird emotion on my chest. It was weak, but it was there, hiden somewhere. With that, I just fell asleep in the studio's sofa.

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→Harry's Pov←

I just couldn't bare hearing that conversation anymore. Perrie hugging Zayn, may have been cute depending from where you were seeing them. Zayn had his eyes closed, but Perrie just had them open, like waiting for Zayn to stop hugging her. I have never liked her, but that just make me hate her more than what I really should. But, it doesn't matter how many times you try to make people notice her real personality, she can hide it preatty well infront of Liam, Zayn and Louis. She has always been cold toward Niall and me. Is it because we are the same? Did she notice the fact that we are both gay? Ok, 'am not sure if Niall is gay, and well, 'am not gay eighther. I should say 'am bi or something, but I guess I prefer dicks. Okay, yes 'am gay.

I have always been in love with Lou. I told him once, but he took it as a joke. We have done a great amound of things bestfriends defenately don't do. We have kissed, we have slept together both naked, we have even jercked off together, and we have done even more stuff. But that all happened before I paired him up with Eleonor. Why did I do that if love him? Well, I didn't exactly did that because I wanted to, I did it because there was a time in which the whole internet and TV though we were actually daiting. He was stressed, and was starting to take distance from me. I remembered once I met a nice gorl called Eleanor. She was friend of a friend of mine. I introduced them, adn I think they got an automatical crush one with the other. Well, who wouldn't get a crush with someone like Louis anyways? I told Louis to have a date with her. He accepted happily. Some days later, they doth were on a relationship, and they even celebrated their first year aniversary with me. I though they would eventually break up, but they didn't.. I never thought they would last this long.

But there's nothing I can do, Modest will hang me from the roof if I started daiting a man, and it will be worst if thatt man was Louis Tomlinson. my band mate. Also, I won't tell him about my feelings because he will probably never talk to me again. He isn't exactly the way he shows himself infrit of the cameras. He is cockier, colder, and cuter. Soemtimes I think he really hates people paring us up. He even said Larry was bullshit and everything. The first time we met, I though he was nice, then we ended up together in the same band and my crush toward him became love.

Anyways, I have to text Liam to see what happened. 'Am not exactly in the mood to get depression due to my sexual life. I took out my cellphone and tried calling Liam, so I wouldn't need to call him. I couldn't reach him, so I just sended him a text message. I wish he answeres soon.

To: Daddy

-4:36p.m-

Liam mate answer please. Perry came to the studio and started screaming that she heard Niall admiting he was gay. What happened? 

I sended the text and decided to call Louis. I guess I should at least tell hin we had a fight with Perrie. Well Niall had a fight with her, my fight  was more a kindergarden discusion. But also, I have to talk with him about that...

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AN: Hi! Sorry for lasting so long to update. I was blocked out of ideas. Again am sorry for my grammar but I am in highschool in "classes".