Save Us {NCT Dream}

Day 39

The wind hollered and the sun is bright, the birds flew and chriped, producing beautiful melodies. What kind of mockery is this? Renjun would never knew. It was like the world loved-No, the world lived to see them in pain.

Another kick from Hyulsik shoved Chenle to the wall, the younger isn't even crying anymore, the jabs of pain became a norm for each of them, sick ass teens with suffering as their best friends if not soulmates. "Tch, it's so boring." The man said in annoyance.

A month passed, the days turning into what felt like an eternity. Haechan makes his way to help the Chinese only to find him passed out. He bites down on his lips, hands shaking as he cradles the younger boy. Jaemin was somewhere to their right, abandoned from the course of events moments ago.

"You useless shits can fuck off" they three left, Jeno limps his way towards Jaemin and sobs hard into the unconscious boy's figure muttering pleas. "I-I....have to go" Haechan said giving Chenle and Jisung one kiss each on their foreheads before getting up and sways for the door.

His lack of  food intake took a great toll on his body and he could laugh out loud till his eyes brim with tears at how none of the hyungs commented how he looked like a walking skeleton. Maybe it didn't matter, he didn't matter.

When Chenle had woke up and finds himself under his soft covers, he's immediately attacked with the bashing and scenarios that flows in like a gushing river. He wants to cry, no tears were produce. He wants to scream, not a decibel was heard. He wants someone to hold him and protect him from all this torture.

But no one is there.

He didn't want to keep continuing like this, destroying himself like this as if he's not already in shattered pieces. It didn't matter what he had to do, he just wants this all to go away, he wants to be normal, he wants to smile, he wants laugh and do jokes and dance and sing and live like those fairytale princesses. Most of all, he wants this pain to end.

He wants to put an ending to this tragic story, perhaps he'll save the others too by doing this? They'll surely miss him but, they'll move on. Chenle smiled to himself, already dreaming of the moment he wouldn't feel the pain anymore, or rather he wouldn't feel anything anymore.

Renjun had just entered the dorm when he heard Jisung's ear splitting scream, rushing to the source of the sound he feels his breathe being cut off and drops to his knees seeing a very pale Chenle with a rope around his neck being hold up by the maknae.

Somehow he wasn't surprise, maybe he was expecting this? Maybe he was wondering who would go first? Or perhaps his bet was on himself or Hyuck so he was terrified and scarred seeing that his little brother went first?

"I want to die" Chenle kept repeating in his native tounge while being cradled by the youngest and the eldest. Jisung said nothing, only crying in silnce but Renjun knew it's only a matter of time befor he snaps.

Jisung's panic attacks are the worst among them, he had remembered the first timeit happened and the maknae needed actual help getting his lungs to function. How he would go from hyperventilating to stop breathing, Jisung nearly died that day but he still laughed for the hyungs on Vlive.

Then once Chenle is checked in a ward and put under suicide watch, he gets that call from Haechan. He guesses that things are awkwardly suspicious because it was oddly weird on the other side of the line (and he might want to bet that the hard crying sounds were from Winwin, would that ge tell them?)

It was stupid how the hyungs actually believed his words, just like the rest of the world that they had fooled. But as he's slowly loosing to the darkness, his thoughts fought, stay with them or end his pain and give up. Why was he hesitating?

It didn't matter because when he had woke up, it was proof he was still fucking alive but he was glad too. He wouldn't want to ever betray his Dreamies, his oh so ill fated 5 brothers that were counting on him. But, just like them, he wants to give up too.

He was in the same room as Jeno and Chenle. Jaemin was sitting on a chair next to his bed, not asleep but staring blanky at something in his hands. "Jaemin?" Jaemin didn't stir nor react. "Nana" Jaemin snap hsi head at him, fresh tears dripping as he puts his head down onto Renjun's body.

"Thank god, I thought.....I thought...." he was sobbing. "Shh.....it's okay. I'm still here" if Jaemin is here then Hyuck is probably at the dorms taking care of Jisung. "Hyung...." Renjun froze, "Please, it's been to long since I called anyone that without fear"

But Renjun wants to protest, no way, he can't call him that. He was no better than any of them to be called a 'hyung', he can't have that title. But he refrains from saying anything, "Guys?" Haechan peeks in, a hand around Jisung, who's supporting who? Renjun can't tell.

He looks at Haechan, the boy looked no different than a walking skeleton, he was so terrified becuase he could barely recognize his fellow vocalist. Chenle, his body laid on the bed unconcious, body covered in white bandages to hide the horrible sight of his wounds.

Jeno was awake, but he was only silently looking, seemingly deep in thoughts. He looked paler, there was no sign of life in his eyes, as if he's body is a moving dead corpse. Jaemin looked worn out, his hair all over and his own arms covered in bandages of white.

Then he sees Jisung and oh god, face covered with a mask but obviously trembling as he moves to sit near Chenle, his mouth mumbling incoherent words tagt were either anger or despair. The two boys are so young, they were supposed to live their lives living their greatest dreams, performing, wining awards, maybe find partners and have their own family one day.

But Renjun knows, the maknaes could no longer have that perfect life, and neither will the rest of them. Looking at his own messed up self, Renjun is sure. It's no point hoping for things to get better, no point to wait for a miracle that only exists in fairytales. They really can't anyway, too busy finding the ending to this story rather than fixing everything.

"I promise it'll end soon" Renjun proclaims, his lips purse into a smile. Thinking about the end makes him feels slightly better already, "How?" Jeno snapped, but his voice is void of emotions. "You'll see, we're gonna stop being in pain.....no one can hurt us again.....we're going to be better......together. I'll make sure of it"

Jaemin confusedly eyes the elder male, Jeno looks away, can't lie, he wants to end this too. Hyuck smiles going over to Jeno to acompany him, Jisung heard but made no reaction. All this time he never believed Renjun but just this once,  maybe he could trust his hyung.

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The END is near!!!

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I'm curious what do you guys think might happen?