Save Us {NCT Dream}

Day 47

Renjun sighs, eyes spilling tears as he stood under shower. It didn't mattter how many times he went through it, the pain, horor and dread double over each time. 

He hugs himself tight, it was comeback season and with their constant need to be on camera, he had to refrain himself from cutting too much, especially in exposed areas like his arms. He saw how the stylists were more mad at him than worried or horrified.

He can't wait for this to end, to stop hurting every single day of his life, no more hurting himself, watching others get hurt and being forced to hurt them.

Thinking about waking up and knowing no one is going to get whipped, beaten or raped again and again. Jeno can enjoy his sleep, Donghyuck can eat whatever he wants and not puke it out, Jaemin enjoying dancing for dancing itself, Chenle can laugh and be loud again, Jisung can enjoy his life that's still so young.

He shuts the shower off and steps out of the bathroom, he shudders at his messed up bed. It immediately triggers him back to the memories from only a few hours ago. His back and lower abdomen still hurts and Renjun can vividly feel the older man's hands all over him.

He grabs his clothes and went to Jaemin's room instead. There's no way he's staying in there any longer than needed. Jaemin is at the dance studio with Jisung, they're going to perfect some moves before their last promotional stage for the new album. 

But Renjun knew, Jaemin was just there to make sure Geomjal did nothing to the maknae.

He slipped his clothes on, and went to the kitchen, ignoring his vibrating phone on the countertop, he digs into the drawers. Kun or any one of the Chinaline would constantly call or text him at any odd time of the day. 

He took out a few objects, smiling as he eyes them. They'll be free soon.

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Jeno wasn't sure what Renjun was planning. But whatever it is, it gave him a bad feeling yet a yearning for it. It's been 4 days since he last slept, if you count a mere 40 minutes sleep that is. 

He's constantly restless, his mind is always too loud or too quiet. It kept him up for nights, and he's done pretending for the hyungs. Most of them did anyway, they've lost every reason to.

Dream and 127 did a small content filming the previous night, they played a few games. Jeno was swaying the entire time, the moments from the time blurs in his memories. He didn't know nor remember Dooyoung's scream when he collapsed, Jungwoo's sobbing or Mark's pleas for him to wake up.

But he couldn't get Jisung's scream of horror out of his head, or Chenle's fearful voice shaking and stuttering as he talks or Haechan's crying. It was supposed to be a fun night, but it turned into a chaotic mess. A type that the fans definitely won't enjoy.

The hyungs watched, they tried to help but a bark from himself, Renjun and Jeno had them back off. The hyungs could help them, Mark can help them. They're always trying their hardest to help, someone would always try to stick around with them at the dorms and practice sessions.