Save Us {NCT Dream}

Day 45

"Sicheng, what did he said?" Yuta asks, but Sicheng still refuses to talk. Not when he's in his own denial at what he heard, he couldn't accept what he heard.

Its been days since then but he couldn't tell them even if he tried, the words could never form and leave his lips. 

Mostly because he doesn't know the korean word for it, why would they ever teach him the word 'suicide' in the first place? But otherwise, he can't get himself to tell.

This is obviously urgent and very important, this a matter of his younger brothers lives. Maybe he's selfish, or he's just a plain coward. 

Yuta frowns when Sicheng remains quiet, needless to say he's never been more annoyed at the boy than he thought he could ever be with him.

Yet, it scares him, what could've Hyuck said that shook the actual living out of this Chinese boy. 

Taeyong and Dooyoung kept on close tabs on the Dreamies, it was then they knew how much the dreamies just seems to barely exist outside their dorms and practice rooms.

They always looked so tired and Dooyoung swore Jisung nearly went into a panic attack when he had unexpectedly pat his shoulder from the back.

Dooyoung went to see Jeno a few days ago, he had seen how strained the boy had looked. The way the words 'help me' simply paints all over his face, a burden heavier than Taeyong's on his shoulder.

It quizzes him to no end, why aren't they saying anything? 

Jeno had wordlessly sat him down in the living room that somehow didn't feel as comfy anymore, although barely anything was changed the place seems to have dulled down.

The traces of youth and happiness no longer present. Even being there made him feel sick, cold even. 

Jeno made him tea, his expression was unreadable, and it was almost like Dooyoung could see through those lifeless eyes. "Jeno yah.....please tell hyung.....what's going on?"

But Jeno only smiled, it was that famous eye smile that's to die for. 

But Dooyoung didn't like how his smile had looked then. Like a prey who already accepted it's doomed fate. Someone who had already given up.

Johnny hadn't sleep well ever since he saw Haechan.....like that. At some point he was sick of worrying and made it clear to himself that he's going to grab a bunch of Haechan's and the others favourite pastries and apologize to the younger while paying them a small visit. 

When he visited the dreamies (a day after Dooyoung's visit), he had walked in on Haechan holding a sobbing Chenle in his arms, the elder's bone thin arms cradling the younger boy in his arms in attempt to sooth him.

Chenle was visibly trembling, eyes filled with pure fear as he grips onto his hyung as if Hyuck was his last lifeline. 

It was when the demons in his head got loud, or the times he sees Renjun walking down the hall with his arms exposed (and sometimes with fresh blood dripping down his skin). He would go to Jeno and Jaemin who may or may not hadn't gotten any sleep in the past few days or Donghyuck if he wasn't busy emptying his stomach. 

Johnny could feel his heart banging through his ribbcage, Chenle looked so small, so vulnerable and all he wanted to do was go and scoop him up into his arms and tell him things will be alright. Instead, Haechan shot a glare at Johhny, a clear message of 'Get out' was sent. 

The vocalist glare him down as if Johnny just trespassed a forbidden territory, reluctantly he left. He knew he shouldn't have, how could he leave those two children like that? But the way Donghyuck had looked, the way he hugs Chenle and basically tries to kill Johnny with his eyes alone. 

He couldn't interfere that, no matter how dire the supposedly comforter's situation may be. He couldn't butt in such a intimate moment. 

And Mark? Mark was beyond frantic. A little part of him had hoped the dreamies would tell him since he used to be a part of them. But Jaemin dares not say a word, Jisung avoids him like a plague, and the rest of the dreamies proceeds to just block him out of their world, their twisted wrapped in cruelty world.

It was Dreamies comeback season, notably why they rarely get to see them. So when they do, the obvious change is impossible to miss.

It was a known fact now, something big and wild is going on with the younger members unit, the amount of white pills stored in the cupboards, the way their toilet always have a lingering stench of wet metal.

But nobody knew what, not even the fact what they're seing is only the tip of the iceberg.

They never knew that they were far too late, that matters had gotten too bad and too big for them to meddle with anymore. They tried cornering the dreamies into telling them, that didn't turn out well, the effort was fruitless, and even add more damage.

Dooyoung, Mark and Taeyong had pulled Jisung to stay back with them after one particular practice, they beg for the youngest to spill anything, even the smallest bit of information. They promised to help him, to solve whatever problem that they're facing. 

But all hell broke loose, Jisung of course didn't interpret the situation right. He went into a full on panic attack when the two wouldn't let him leave, all he sees were the three devils that tore his life apart. He lungs had started to fail on him, the hyungs can only panic as they try to help the maknae.

If it weren't for Jaemin, Jisung would've died that day. "Hyung what were you thinking?!?" He lashes out, glad that he came to check, he was quick to push them away and start CPR on Jisung. The maknae is in a sobbing mess, clinging to Jaemin so hardly he may have left marks on the elder's shoulders. 

"Jaemin, what is this? Please just tell us, we can and will help you. What was that? How are we supposed to help you if you won't tell us what is wrong?" Jaemin ignores Mark's pleas and picks up Jisung.

"Na Jaemin, as your leader. You're going to stop and explain to us right now-"

"MAYBE WE CAN'T BE SAVED!!" the outburst was unexpected. "Maybe we don't want to be saved because it won't and can never go back to how it was before. You can't do anything, you....you can't save us...." he exclaims.

"Jaemin....no.....Jaemin please" Mark could only let his tears fall as Jaemin turns to leave. "You won't be our leader for long...."