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So sad news
And like depressing issues?
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So remember my uncle (great uncle)? In a coma? He probably won't make it. I never really knew him, but when I was with him he was so funny and kind. But, if it's God's plan to let him Rest In Peace, then that may be. But if He choose to provide us with a miracle, that would lift the world off my shoulders. He has a plan, a big plan, and he intends to use all of us.
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Depressing stuff
Idk what to call it
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So I think I have some mental issues. Cuz like I don't sleep, I hate myself, I don't have high expectations for myself, I down talk myself, and tonight I just had this urge to hurt myself. (Not to mention I never sleep)
One of my other friends (crush) has the same issues. He hurts himself a lot, and I made him promise to me not to hurt him self. And now I want to hurt myself, I need him to make me promise. But he won't respond to my texts. So it's up to you guys, make me promise I won't hurt myself.
This isn't the first time this has happened, I just realized how much I hate myself.
No matter how hard I try to fight off whatever this is, my thoughts just win over my hope and happiness.
But I have to keep thinking, why in a box full of evils (Pandora's box) was there hope? Because hope always sparks the fire to fight the evils
But I just don't know what's going on.
If you know, please help me
I just kinda can't with myself rn
And I really need to try to stop myself from going to far and becoming anorexic.
I just don't know what I'm doing with myself
I need to get a grip
I have a lot of things and emotions I need to sort out
I wouldn't be surprised if there is something wrong with me
Let us just pray (sorry if your not religious) that life just sorts things out and that God's plan is unfolding in a way that makes all the things ok
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I gtg "sleep"
Bye bye
Oh yeah I forgot
My friend at dance is having heart issues. So like we don't know, she just went to the doctor today. Please just keep her in your thoughts, they don't know what is going on with her at the moment. Thanks
