Regret (Cross x Nightmare)

Chapter 5:My Feelings...

I can hear his cries beside me pleading to me to wake up and saying I'm sorry over and over again,his sobs was just making it more painful to hear,I can't believe he said those words,It was not believable to me,I don't know if I should open my eyes,What if I open my eyes he'll beat me up and hating me,screaming and yelling at me how idiotic and useless I am in this world even saying go die,I just don't want this life anymore,Nobody loves me at all some people say they will be there but they just end up leaving me,The people who I love just keep yelling at me how I am a complete failure why do I have to be a mistake in this world?Why do I have to suffer everything is this the life I was made for creator?Making me suffer everyday making me utterly useless.

"Oh God,Cross please wake up,please don't cry"He said as he I hears him whisper that it was his fault,all his fault he say.I felt myself something inside me that I felt,sympathy and love.I hated myself for having those feeling but hey who cares,maybe if I open my eyes he will finally kill me,I know he is just lying,all of what he is saying are just lies so he can fool me,like he always does,he treats me as a fool,unloved,worthless,and how he yell everything that is true about me.

I decided to open my eyes and see Nightmare carefully wiping his eyes and see I see half of him was something but it was covering with the black goop and now fully covered once more,though a while ago I saw a skeleton inside of him.I was thinking what was that,what did I just saw a while ago?

He sees me with his one eye filled an expression I never thought to see in him,happiness.I can feel him wipe my face,it seems I was crying a while ago that explains a lot why he said don't cry but I don't know if I could,"Oh Cross I'm glad you are alive I was worried about you,what were you thinking going to commit suicide huh?Don't you know I was scared you will die"He yelled in angry voice it surprised me more,I thought he didn't care about me but maybe he is just lying to me.

"You were worried?"I finally ask,that question just went out of my mouth."Of course I was worried about you,I don't want one of the strongest member in my gang dead,Idiot"He yelled once more but his eyes looks like it has pain and sorrow in it but the word idiot he used it hurts,I sighed he is lying about being worried at me,he is probably holding back his anger at me.

"You know Nightmare I-""What do you need help?Do you feel cold?Are your hurt?"He all ask with a worried look.This is the first time Nightmare did this to me.

"N-no,I-I'm fine don't worry about it."I said clearly stuttering some of the words,he sighed relief was the sigh he made,"Where am I?"I asked,he look "Your at my castle in the medical room again"He said as his eyes lock at me,I look at him.I saw something shine under his shirt,I wanted to ask what was it but "I'm glad you are awake Cross,you were asleep about 2 months now"He said"Two months!?"I Screamed on top of my lungs,I've been asleep for about two months.

"Calm down what matters is that you are alright"He said calming me down,I took a deep breath and sigh,I sorta miss my room,I sorta wanted to wonder off in castles hallway again while nobody notice me back again it sometimes relaxes me when I walk in the hall,"Nightmare..."I said as I took a deep breath,he looked at me."Can I walk around the castle?I wanted to get out of the bed"I said,he smiled and nodded,'He smiled' that's the first time he smiled without doing anything abusive or sadistic to anyone.

I didn't smile though,I decided to try to stand up,my legs was shaking I stumbled but I felt arms wrapped around me and help me stand straight,I look at him with no expression,"Are you alright?"He asked in a calming tone,I nodded slowly as I balance myself out.

In success I finally was able to stand on my own,Nightmare let me go carefully,It was hard to move around,the bandages on my body was the hard part since it is hard to move my hands and legs.I took a step forward,I shake it was hard to balance even if I took a just one step.I sighed as I try to took another step forward,I notice Nightmare was holding my one and the other on my waist.