truth untold ; choi soobin

nineteen

when hyunjae arrived, soobin was already there.

she was ready to tell him, she is pregnant and she will go to London to take care of herself there and return to Korea after.

soobin saw her and came to her and hugged her immediately.

hyunjae wasn't moving but she felt herself close to tears.

soobin pulled away and put his jacket on her, his daily act.

you never change, cutie.

soobin looked at her and his eyes enlarged.

"you lost weight.. have you not been eating?"

"u-um, no. I am ok.."

soobin sighed.

"is everything ok?"

when he asked that, she was close to tears again.

she took time before she could speak again.

just say it, jae.

"soobin, i'm pregnant."

when she said that, soobin looked at her, his eyes were wide.

"w-what again??"

"I-I am pregnant."

she avoided his eye contact and she heard soobin sighed loudly.

"I-I can not think about this well.."

hyunjae waited for his response. she was becoming impatient.

"can't you... abort it?"

and when hyunjae heard that, her blood rises and anger controlled over her.

hyunjae was crying, tears was spilling from her eyes but she wiped it all away.

"do you know what you are saying?? soobin-ah?"

"i love to have a child with you.. but not now.. I just debuted, you won't understandㅡ"

"I won't understand?! do you think everything is easy for me? I am an idol too soobin!"

she started crying so hard, he rejected the baby.. he rejected..

"hyunnieㅡ"

he tried to hug her but she pulled away.

"don't touch me. you are not the soobin I dated for 4 years."

"hyunnie.. let's talk..."

"i'm sorry, soobin. I don't want to talk anymore, like ever.."

she was now a mess, then she heard soobin cried.

her heart softened.

but she resisted that, even though she hates it when soobin cries, especially when she is the reason.

you are forever my weakness and my greatest downfall, choi soobin. 

hyunjae then ran away, to avoid him.

and as soon as she knew she was far from him, she stopped and cried loudly.

why are you like that, soobin... I thought you would accept us..

I made you, you were broken, you were a real mess. you tried hurting yourself.

I fixed you, I comforted you, and let you come to my daily practice. I told you the importance of life and you also dreamt of being an idol because of me, you told me that.

but you left me for that dream. the same dream that I gave up for the baby.

but you didn't do the same.

you disappointed me bigtime, choi soobin.

well, some things aren't always supposed to be in your way.