Trust Me Again

Chapter 2

In my life I've had received a couple of shocking and unexpected news but nothing like this. Watching him right in front of me after all this time it really hurts. Funny how fate works right? I always thought that good people get good things in return but, lately I just don't see how that can be true.

I've been busting my ass for these past year and a half to be a good person and to do great things for the people out there, yet my life is all about getting hurt in all the ways possible. Starting from having parents that don't believe their daughter is good and talented enough to follow her dream. Followed by faking a smile or a good day. Then watching how your "best friend" just don't see anything wrong with you. How they don't see behind that mask in your face. How they don't go further in your life. But the worst of it all is sucking at love. Starting by having a boyfriend that is going to be miles away from you probably for the rest of their life. And the worst part of all, having the one person who understand but broke you in your doorstep. Yet there are things far worse than that.

Sometimes fate play games. Just to see if your strong enough to battle it and move forward, but other times just for fun. In my case, I think it's both. You know, the funny thing is that it's 5:30 am and I haven't move my eyes from that elevator door ever since I saw him or better yet, thought I saw him. It wasn't really him. It really was his ghost or something. And sadly, Sophi may be right. This can be all a sign that he is meant for me but I really don't want to believe that. I want to fight for Austin and try to make things work. I really want to leave my past in the past. Someone once asked me "How are you gonna grab your future if your still holding to your past?"And that makes absolute sense...to them but not me. The past makes you who you are today. The past is the greatest teacher of all time. The past is the one thing that can make you feel like a better person. The past is the only thing you have left to look at and be proud of yourself and where you're standing now. So the real question is...How can I let go of the past when that is the only thing leading me to my future?

I still haven't found the answer to that question and every day I feel like I'm getting further away to find it, but I know someday it'll all be clearer.

"Good Morning. You're up early"

"Actually I'm up late."

"What do you mean?" I could tell her what happened but I think it will just make things awkward for us. Sophi has always want the best things in life for me and I love for her for that, but sometimes the things she thinks are great for me aren't. For an example, him. She believes that he has been the greatest thing in my life and still doesn't understand why we broke up. The thing is that nobody knows the real reason we broke up. I always said that he just needed a break away from the city because telling a lie is better than facing the truth.

"Nothing. How did you sleep?"

"Great! How about you? Any dreams with hot boys?"

"More like ghosts" I laugh dryly.

"What?"

"Nothing. Anyway I have to get ready. My first class is at 8:00 and I would like to be there maybe 30 minutes before so if I get lost I can still be early for the class."

"Responsible as always" She said rolling her eyes at me.

After washing myself and organizing some stuff from the boxes, I pick up my car keys and leave for college. I park my car and start walking to the building where my first class is. My schedule said that my first class is going to be Creative Writing and it would be at the classroom number 203. While searching for the room, someone bumps into me, making all of the things I am carrying to fall on the floor.