i felt it, for days.
you were vanishing, slowly but surely.
i couldn't understand why until that night.
you came back and told me you were sad.
as if by default, i blamed myself.
and you added to it.
you admitted you only ever dated me because you wanted to be happy and you thought i could give you that.
you hate the world.
you hate your life.
you hate everyone who is in your life.
so when i came around and made you feel heaven for the first time, you thought i could be your permanent fix.
but that isn't how it works, jungkook.
you can't make people save you.
you need to save yourself.
relationships are only an addition to your life.
don't ever make someone your life.
i wish you knew that.
and i wish you dated me because you loved me, not because you wanted to use me.
but there's no use in wishing for things that will never happen.
and that's also one of the many things i've learned throughout the years.
