if i didn't love you, why did i leave all the other boys?
all the other boys who wanted to be with me when i thought i could be poly.
then i realized i couldn't because every single moment i spent with them, you were on my mind.
and i always looked forward to coming home to you.
is it possible, jungkook?
is it possible for me to have felt connected to you even if lies were the only foundation of our relationship?
am i merely being delusional?
you said so yourself, remember?
you said you never felt that connection with anyone in a long time.
i never told you i felt connected to you so why did you say it?
you felt it, didn't you?
i really hope you did.
because i really want something in our web of lies to have been real.
and i want some sort of explanation for the way i feel right now.
because i still feel like there's a string between you and me.
no matter how fragile it is.
it's something that could help us in finding our way back to each other one day.
