Tonight, I feel restless, wrecked and ugly.
The most lonesome i could be
After dozen of sleepless nights and
Turning and twisting in my bed,
Im watching the light making its way into my room,
Penetrating through the door's way,
Settling into the floor as if it belongs there. And as if i allowed it to. It made its way like you did into my heart. You've fallen in there, and enlightened so many parts of it. Even when I never wanted you to.
At this night,
I wish i could just close my eyes, and press my lids so tight that i could sink into deep drenched possibilities of a dream. A dream where i could somehow at least see a mere glimpse of you. Where i can feel you, and your presence.
You know, Im thinking about you, and I couldn't be more sad.
You're probably sound asleep. So tight, so comfortable. And here i'm, trying my hardest to make my mind shut down which is thinking and hallucinating. Even though he knows, there is no need of it. I know im crushing my soul, my spirit and my peace.
This time thinking about you, is a waste to me, my youth.
You made me experience how to feel devastated, old,
To feel a closeness to death,
To feel my body numb and heart crying.
To feel im nothing.
To feel I'm alone.
To feel that I wish I was dead.
No doubt, even unknowingly you're torturing me.
But that's true, you may never think as much as i do.
2:09 a.m.
12-04-19
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Silence |✔
Poésie- 'It keeps me sane.' And sometimes, when all the tears dry up, I bleed words. Highest ranked as :3rd in poems, Started publishing on: 28/02/18 All of these words are entirely original. Please,don't copy and paste.
