Emptiness

The door to insanity

There  is an void of emptiness in my heart

Constantly have my mind racing don't even know where to start

All I constantly ask myself "why am I always in pain?" when there's  nothing to gain 

 I am so sick of all these heartless games that's making me go insane

Constantly beating myself up saying "I am the one to blame " for this everlasting pain  in this never ending game

There is an void of emptiness in my heart

Constantly feeling like time has been sliping  by the thoughts of true happiness and  desire

When will that come by?

Instead of my heart letting a person inside and say  "hello' 

My heart is pushing people away with this helpless dying pain saying " bye bye"

My eyes feel heavy from all the crying

I end up going night-night 

There is an void of emptiness in my heart

You ever walked around feeling like you been missing something?

But always constantly dissing somebody

But in reality happiness is what you couldn't have 

Its on the tips of your fingers but never got it 

Never caught it

Never stopped to think "wish I could  walk in this world with no fear

Treated life like it's a precious pearl

When I had lost my mom I felt like I gained a part of her and lost a part of myself

Constantly kicking in 

Don't know when it's going to attack

When you are in my face, you can see that it has been cracked

You can see the pain flowing through like it's blood when you get a cut or scratched

 I feel like my soul has been souless

My heart is icy from all the coldness

I ask myself  " Will that void in my heart ever be filled?"

"Will the remaining pieces be saved or killed?"

I always felt dead inside 

When I lost her I felt like the positive side of me has died

My past forever haunts me

I always  scream " God  will this shit ever stop"

" Like please for me!"

"Make it right"

Put my on ease and terminate the pain and suffering once and for all please

I feel like a ghost 

I don't exist 

This isn't the bliss I wanted to feel and the peace I always wanted to receive

But will this mission ever be completed?

I can't tell you that

But there is one thing I can tell you...

There is a void in my heart that's constantly roaming in the dark