The College Hook Up

Chapter Ten

Words cannot decide how much I hated school now. Marcus hasn't said anything else to me since that day at the cafe. The winter formal was coming up and Mila convinced me to go with her.
       Mila and I decided to go to the mall and buy our dresses. Mila said that she wanted to stop someplace real quick before going and I obviously said okay. Mila has been a saint during my whole breakup. She has been the bestest friend I could ask for.
       After the little pit stop we finally were on our way to the mall. We sang to every song on the radio. We finally got to the mall and we walked inside. As we were almost to the store that's when I saw Marcus and his mom and little sister. Marcus looked down at the ground and stuffed his hands into his pockets. His sister ran over to me wrapping her arms around my legs.
       "Amara!" She yelled as I picked her up. She wrapped her arms around my neck giving me the biggest hug in the world.
      "Hello, beautiful." I said placing kissed all over her face.
      "I miss you." She placed her head against my forehead.
      "I miss you too, Nailia." I said looking at Marcus at the corner of my eye.
      "Hello dear." Bri said wrapping her arms around me hugging me after I sat Nailia down.
       "Hello, ma'am." I said hugging her back.
       "Are you guys going dress shopping?" She asked me and Mila.
      "Yeah. The winter formal is coming up." I sideways smiled.
      "Hey." Marcus said doing a little wave with his hand.
      "Hi." I said turning towards him.
       He looked at me and I felt butterflies in my stomach. I just wanted him to hold me.. kiss me one last time.
       "Can we talk?" He asked taking his hand out of his pocket.
       "Sure." I smiled down at Nailia and gave her a hug. "I will see you later, beautiful."
       "Promise?" She asked sticking her hand up with her pinky straight up.
      I smiled and kneeled I wrapped my pinky around hers. "I promise." I pulled her into a hug and smiled.
      Nailia, Mila, and Bre walked over to the food court as me and Marcus walked towards the opposite side of the food court. Marcus sat down at a table and I sat across from him. I closed my eyes and inhailed deeply.
      "Amara." His said softly but sexy.
      "Marcus," I said trying to figure out what to say. "I... I really did love you."
      "I loved you too." He stretched his arm out grasping my hand. I looked down at it. "I was scared."
      "Marcus, I wouldn't hurt you." I looked up at him.
      "I was scared. My ex..."
      "I'm going to stop you right there." I said getting defensive. "I am not you're ex. And if I ever made you feel like i was going to do that to you... you should have told me."
      "When I saw elliot kiss you... it made me realize that I was jealous.  Jealous someone else was getting your attention. I just want you all to myself. It's unhealthy." He said finally looking me in my eyes. "I needed time. Time to figure out what I wanted out of our relationship. I don't want a fling. I want to be with you. I want to be your forever."
       "Marcus," I pulled my hand away from him shaking my head, "I can't. I can't go through that again."
        "Amara.." his face dropped. "Okay."
        "Marcus," I said watching him stand and he looked back at me. He shook his head and continued walking away.
        His mom stood and watched him then looked at me. I frowned feeling my heart rip yet again. I wiped the small tears that fell from my face off. Mila came over to me and Nailia followed. She hugged me tight.
       "I love you Amara." Nailia said then ran back to her mom.

***

It was the night if the formal. I just wanted this night to be over. I slipped my dress on and quickly fixed my hair. Roman asked me if I wanted to go with him and I said sure. I rather go with Roman than go alone. I walked down the stairs and Roman smiled.
       "You look amazing." Roman smiled. He kissed my cheek and then we headed to the dance. Mila and Payton were already there, I just didn't want to go.
        When we first got to the dance everything was fine. Roman and I were dancing but we stayed a good distance apart. That was until I saw Marcus. He was dancing with some girl and she was grinding on him. I noticed where his hands were on her waist as in trying to pull her closer.
         I turned towards Roman and whispered into his ear. He nodded and then grabbed my hips. He pulled me close to him and we started moving as one. He placed his lips on my neck kissing it ever so lightly sending chills down my spine. I looked where Marcus stood and I saw his eyes lock onto mine. He looked pissed. But he turned the girl around and planted a kiss on her lips while he still looked at me.
         I turn towards Roman and whisper in his ear again. He smiled a sly smile and then grabbed my hand. Roman walked over to where Mila and Payton were which was near where Marcus was.
        "Amara and I are going to head out." He said and then turned away from me. "Let's get out of here."
       We walked out into the outside. A cold wind hit my face but I closed my eyes inhaling deeply. Roman smiled over at me.
        "Thank you." I smiled back.
        "Of course." He said.
        I turned and noticed Elliot standing outside smoking a cigarette. Elliot looked at me and dropped it on the ground stopping it out. He headed towards me and Roman and one of Roman's friends called him. Roman said he would be back and then he jogged over there leaving me and Elliot alone.
       "Hey, can you and I talk?" Elliot asked me grabbing my arm. He smiled down at me, "dont try anything."
        I closed my eyes being instantly scared but I did what he said and didn't say anything.  He pinned me against his car inching his arm up my skirt. "You have been a bad girl."
      Elliot crashed his lips down on mine. I yelped out in pain as he bit my lip. His hand inching up my leg to under my skirt. His hand entered me. I tried to squirm away from him but his other hand pinned me tighter against the car. I tried to push him away bit i couldnt get him to budge.
      "Marcus isn't here to help you." Elliot hissed before chrashing his lips down onto mine, biting me and leaving mark.
       I looked up seeing Marcus stand there in disbelief. I felt tears fall down my face. Elliot's fingers kept going harder. The tears fell faster as I watched Marcus shake his head and turning away.  My heart broke more and I cried under his hand that covered my mouth.
      Finally Elliot was done and he pulled away, "if you tell anyone.. I will hurt you."
      Elliot kissed my forehead and fixed himself before heading back into the building.

***

I stood in the shower and tried to scrub my body down. Wanting to get rid of how nasty I felt. Tears still streaming down my face and I kept scrubbing till my body was red. There was a knock on the door and I got scared thinking it was Elliot. The door opened and there he stood. He took his shirt off and stood near me.
       "I forgot how beautiful you were naked." He said placing his hand on my cheek. I backed away from Elliot's hand. He grabbed onto my arm tight. "We aren't done till I saw we are."
      "Elliot, please." I begged.
        His fingers found my opening. He began to then insert himself. I cried out in pain.