Applying for a Daddy

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A/N: the picture above is what Harper looks like
Thanks for reading! -T

Colby and I sat down with the roommates to talk about the living situation, and they all agreed that I could live there. Devyn thought it would be a little hard to get used to but said she wouldn't mind having another girl in the house. Everyone agreed that the room by the garage would be mine, for all my stuff. Which I didn't have a lot, since most of it was thrown out by my last caregiver. I even spoke to Ricky about Maddie and Lex moving in with him. Oli was still not ready to move but Lex and Maddie have been looking for a place and Ricky was so excited for them to get here. So was I, I missed them so much even though it's only been a few months.

Sam and Kat carried a few boxes to Colby's car downstairs and I sighed as I packed the last box of my things. It was now October and my friends would be here by Christmas. I was still nervous about moving into the Trap house (that's what the roommates call it). I didn't know how living there would affect me. If I would be okay or not. I just knew Colby would take care of me. I taped up the last box and picked it up, walking out into the hallway as Ricky came up. He took the box and gave me a look as to tell me I wasn't supposed to do that. Which technically Colby asked me to just pack, and let them handle the boxes so I'm glad Ricky caught me and not Colby.

I ran back inside and grabbed my teddybear, it was almost the same size as me and I slept with it every night that I wasn't staying over with Colby. It was strange, we'd slept in the same bed but never did anything. Not that I'm complaining, it's nice that he's not pushing me to have sex with him. He's not pushing me at all, he's very delicate with me. Making sure I'm okay at all times and that I slept enough, ate enough, showered and brushed my teeth. He does everything a caregiver is supposed to do, but he's never tried to go any further than what we've already done. Which was cheek kisses and cuddling. I walked out of my empty room and turned the light off. I closed the door behind me and sighed heavily as Colby and Ricky came back into the apartment.
"You okay darling?" Colby asked. I nodded and smiled.
"Just gonna miss Ricky a little." I mumbled as Ricky walked up to me and hugged me.
"He's allowed over anytime, and you're allowed to go out whenever you want as long as I know about it. You know that." Colby said softly, smiling at the end. I nodded my head and giggled a little. Colby kissed my cheek and walked out into the hallway to give me a moment to say my goodbyes to Ricky. I met Colby out in the hallway and Ricky closed the door behind me. I looked back as we walked down the hall, soon my friends would be where I was. I smiled at that thought.

"So the your room is a bit small to live in but I bought a pink beanbag chair so it'll be your safe space. You'll go there to play or spend time when I'm off filming okay?" Colby said as we walked down to his car.
"Yes sir. Will I sleep in your room with you then?" I asked, my heart beating a bit faster.
"Yes." He replied quickly, he opened my door for me and made sure I was buckled in before going around to his side of the car. He began driving and placed a hand in my thigh.

I thought back to moving in with my last caregiver. It wasn't like this at all. He had movers and maids who set everything up in my room while he worked and I waited patiently in the living room. I wasn't allowed in my room until it was all set up because it was "big girl work" and I wasn't a big girl. He always told me that.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek as we pulled into the driveway. I quickly wiped it away. Colby knew about my past caregivers. He knew that the last one mistreated me. We had a long conversation one night after a movie night. He found out about the abuse and the yelling. I was lucky enough to get away, I was lucky that he wanted me gone. Had I tried to leave on my own I would have been punished even worse.
"Harper?" Colby called my name, pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Yes sir? Sorry."
"No it's fine, are you okay?" He asked, cupping my cheek. I nodded and smiled at him, my teary eyes clearing up now. He made me feel safe, I knew he wouldn't hurt me. Colby was my home now, and I was his, I hoped.

We got all of my boxes into my room, Colby setting the last box on the floor as I stood around, looking at the room. There was a mirror on the closet, a small desk along one wall and a couch that Colby bought for me. He kissed my forehead, leaving me and Kat to have girl time while setting up my new room. It only took us an hour and a half, seeing as I didn't have much. All of my clothes were organized by color and hung up on my closet. My pillows, blankets and teddybear was nicely placed on my new couch. My coloring items and mental health items were all organized on the desk. I smiled as I sat on the couch and Kat plopped onto the bean bag.
"So, can I ask a question?" Kat mumbled, a small smile appeared on her face. I nodded and waited for her question.
"Do you call Colby daddy?" She asked, her smile turned into a smirk. My face went bright red and my eyes went wide. She laughed loudly and hid her face. As did I.
"I c-call him sir. He asked me not to call him Mr. Brock or Mr. Cole. So I don't."
"Okay, I was just curious. Have you guys had sex? Or is that not something you do as a little?"
Again my face went red. I was sure I looked like an apple. I took in a deep breath before gathering my words.
"As a little, part of the relationship is sex, yes. It truly depends on the caregiver though, and no..Colby and I have not." I said, biting the inside of my cheek. She nodded and laughed a little, causing me to laugh too.

We both decided to go join the others in the game room. It was just Sam, Jake and Colby. I assumed Aaron was up stairs as I heard screaming about a game. I wasn't sure where Devyn and Corey went but the car wasn't here when we got home. I sat down next to Colby and smiled as he wrapped his arm around me. I leaned into him, his hand touched my waist. I felt the warmth from his skin on mine. I bit my lip a little as he rubbed his thumb across my skin. I was thinking about what Kat said, which lead to me thinking about why Colby and I hadn't you know...done anything yet. Him and Jake were currently joking around about the video they'd just filmed.
I listened to the conversation, not saying anything. Sam jumped in with a few jokes too. I didn't understand their humor but I would get used to it eventually.

I watched Colby as he spoke, his eyes closed when he smiled and his teeth were very straight and white. I watched his lips move as he talked, the way they formed certain words. He was truly, very beautiful. His hair fell perfectly into his forehead and the blue streaks brought out his eyes. I smiled a little and wrapped my arm around his neck, burying my face into the crook of his neck. He turned his head towards me, I could feel his lips brush against my cheek as he breathed out. He let out a low chuckle, and pulled me closer to him. We sat like that for a little bit while they continued talking. It was nice, to be this close to him. He smelled nice. Not like cologne or shampoo or body wash. He had his own scent, it was like when you first wake up and your windows are open so the fresh air is flowing through your lungs. I could feel my heart beating out of my chest, and so could he I assumed because he started rubbing my back to calm me. Finally Colby said he was going to go upstairs and edit something for his channel, so I pulled away. He took my hand and walked with me to his room. Which was nothing new, I'd slept in his bed before so I wasn't scared or nervous. He closed his door behind me and locked it, while smiling at me. Now I was nervous.

He came very close to me, not moving. I could feel his breathing as it picked up a bit. He suddenly brought his arms up to my face, cupping my cheeks.
"I'm going to do something, and I want you to stay very still." He said softly. I nodded and whispered a yes sir, watching him as he leaned closer and closer. He closed his eyes as our lips were barely touching. Then I felt it. His soft, pillow like lips connected with mine. My eyes fluttered close and I brought my hands up to his arms, holding them in place. This was it. Our first kiss. It was passionate and slow, gentle. I melted into him and he moved his arms to wrap around my waist, leaving mine to fall into his chest. He slowly pulled away and leaned his forehead against mine. "I've been dying to do that ever since we met." He breathed out. I bit my bottom lip and closed my eyes. This moment, I wanted to remember forever.