Sad love

Memories

Thranduil is now in the middle of his 10:th month and extremely huge
Thranduil's POV
It has been a while since Fili also left I don't really know why but to my surprise I actually miss his company but I'm ripped from my thoughts by a strong kick from inside my belly and I put a hand on it and smiled.
My babies didn't appear to like when I'm thinking because they always interrupts with kicks.
- Would you two like to come out soon because I really need to think now.
- What do you need to think about Ada?
I looked up from my belly and saw Legolas come towards my throne were I decided to spend my afternoon.
- Nothing important I just need to think so I won't turn mad
Legolas smirked at me like he was saying "I already love those kids for bothering you"
- Hey it's not fun
- It really is Ada
- Oh shut up and help me out of this throne because if I can't think I need air
- Are you sure Ada you should probably rest or something
- I believe I know what I should do
- Sorry Ada
Legolas lead me out in the garden and helped me sit down on a bench
- Ada I...I need to tell you something
- What is it my little leaf?
- I..I don't want to be king... I only wish to be prince and nothing more and when my siblings are born and you are able to take care of them without getting to exhausted I'm going to travel north
I just couldn't believe what I just heard.
Why shouldn't Legolas be king?
Why would he travel north?
I didn't know what to say I opened my mouth and the only word I could say came out
- Why?
- I'm to irresponsible to be able to run a kingdom and I have actually never really wanted to
- I understand Legolas and you should know that I support every decision you make but why travel north?
- I..can't stay here because..she is here and I can't stand here and just watch her so sad
- I understand...go to your room and go to sleep
- But you Ada?
- I will call on someone when I need help
Legolas nodded and walked away.
I looked up at one of the trees in the garden
- You can come down now Tauriel
A brown haired elf climbed down from the tree
- How did you see me?
- I didn't but the tree told me and yes I can talk with the trees through thoughts but it's harder since my little ones won't let me think
Tauriel smiled faintly and looked at me
- My lord I haven't had the time or strength to apologize for my words on the battle field
- Nothing to apologize for you were in war and love
Tauriel blinked her eyes
- I miss him so
- I understand I miss my lover too
- But still you have something left of him that you will be able to keep
Tauriel looked at my belly with sadness.
I put an hand on her shoulder
- You also have something left from your lover
- What?
- Memories
Tauriel looked at me with so much pain and sadness I couldn't handle my own pain so I slowly let my tears fall
- When I lost my wife I thought I might die shall I be honest I wanted to die just so I could be with her. I will never stop loving her but when I met my lover were there actually some moments were I didn't think about her but now when he is dead too I only live because I have to be here for my babies and Legolas
Legolas my first son who soon would leave me.
Forever?
Tauriel sobbed threw the night
- My lord I haven't told this to anyone and you must promise to not tell any living person
- I promise
- When Kili died I was pregnant but I lost the child when I was thrown into a rock
Tears falling steady from her eyes
- And...and I couldn't do anything to save it
I couldn't really take in what Tauriel told me she had also been pregnant that day but only I wanted to return to safety.
I pulled her into a hug
- Sh breath it is going to be okay
- No it won't l wish I was mortal I can't live with this pain
- Sh focus on breathing
Tauriel suddenly stopped crying and looked up at me in horror
- My....my lord can you please send for a healer I think I might need one
Then she passed out
What happened to Tauriel find out in next chapter