Go ahead and judge me all by asking why,
Just to figure out if I have the guts to cry.
Telling me to be myself,
But than put all that's different on the old bookshelf.
To scared to tell you how I feel,
I wish this all was just not real.
Waiting for what the future will hold,
Where i will be braver and so bold.
Talking bad about my friends,
Shooting my ideas down seems to never end.
Acceptance is all I asked for,
But instead you turn into a wild boar.
I wish I could just hide away,
I wish you just would not stay.
You told me to be nice to all,
Whether skinny or fat, short and tall.
But here you are pushing me aside,
Because of you my feelings all collide.
My head aches of a perfect storm,
That one day i will live away in a college dorm.
I try my hardest to be so perfect,
But somehow how i always end up never worth it.
Tears are hiding behind my eyes,
Trying to avoid all these lies.
You are the master of perplexors,
As you give all your lectures.
Tell me that i'm always wrong,
Even if i'm writing my own little song.
A song that cries out when all is lost,
A song that understands every little cost.
Keeping me isolated in the house,
All the tears run off my face and sink into my blouse.
Yet at school I wear my favorite disguise,
As i hide these broken souled eyes.
The smile on my face is truly fake,
When the school day ends i always start to shake.
Hiding behind what left of me, my name,
I walk the halls in the greatest shame.
I look at the girls all pretty and sweet,
Wishing i could be so cool and neat.
My face somehow looks so strong,
My tears stay in once i hear the ring of the gong.
