Eclipsed Star

Chapter Thirty-one

Roman POV

When Jake appeared on the rooftop, the rain threaten to fall from above. For an instant everything that had happened over the past few days, disappeared. It was like he'd met me the way he was supposed to on Saturday night. I wanted to run into his arms, throw myself into his embrace and lose myself in his body.

But it didn't last long. The memory of Mason whispering in his ear, my heartbreak over being left to wait and the hurt the vatal had turned into fury, all hit me at once, pushing the air out of my lungs and bringing tears to my eyes.

"Leave me alone Jake," I breathed and returned to tending the plants. The cyper growing in the center of the planting bed required watering twice a day, but I had been here so long, I had probably overdone it. I didn't care, it gave me something to do while I avoided his gaze. "I told you we are over."

Even saying the words was like a punch in the gut. How could it be over? We'd barely begun. But I couldn't do it anymore. I wished he'd leave, let me mourn him alone and allow myself to imagine him dead instead of with another man.

He didn't leave, instead he came closer. "Yeah you did, when you were high on Vatal. I'm not giving up that easy. I'm not giving into what Teri wants."

I hadn't told him anything about what happened, "How'd you know?"

"Well, for one, it helps to have an Advanced Paramedic, as a friend." His smug smile brought my jealousy back to the surface.

"Just leave me alone Jake." I shut down my heart, closing my emotions off so he couldn't hurt me again. If he'd moved onto someone else so soon after everything he'd said, he wasn't the person I thought he was anyway and I wouldn't let him hurt me anymore. I wouldn't lay my heart down on the ground for him to step on and smear across the dirt like dog shit.

"Roman, you should know better than to think I'd fuck Mason. I'm still not one-hundred-percent comfortable with the idea ... He'd get into huge trouble if we did anything."

"Is that your only reason?" I snapped, wishing he'd just stop, just leave me here alone. What the fuck had he come here for if he was only going to rub in the fact that he didn't want me. I lost myself in my downward spiral and barely heard what he was saying.

"...Teri drugged me too, and I lost myself. I thought she was you, but there was one good thing about it. It made me realize that I'm gay, and I only want to be with you and only you. I don't want anyone else. I love you Roman and I'm not going anywhere. I just want to take everything in my own stride."

I couldn't believe what he had said. I turned off the hose and turned to him, the tears I'd been fighting all evening so close to falling I didn't know if I could hold them back. "Jake..."

He silenced me with a kiss.

His breath filled the emptiness growing within me. The tender way his lips moved against mine, without hesitation or fear told me that he spoke the truth when he said he loved me. He moved me against the wall and pulled me close, kissing and holding me like I was something precious, something worthy of love.

When he dropped to his knees in front of me, I held my breath. The look of this strong beautiful man worshiping my cock with his hands and mouth was impossible. I didn't deserve it. After Teri, after hitting him and mistrusting him, even knowing how hard this was for him. I didn't deserve him but he forgave me anyway.

I came with an impossible force that rocked through me, tearing through my body until I panted, unable to do anything but adore him.

"Lay down, I'm not finished with you yet." He licked his lips and stood back.