I Hate You! I Love You

Six

They were now married for nearly five months and everything had continued the way it had been. Not much change in their daily lives but Jeonghan knew that deep inside his heart, he was not the same. His feelings was slowly changing towards Seungcheol and it made him so scared. Joshua was beginning to avoid him too. He was angry with him but Jeonghan couldn't help it. After a while, he found out to his chagrin he was going to be the one paying the two million dollars by the end of the year. 

Seungcheol's friends came by often. Jeonghan always retreated to the basement when ever they were around and it was working out well for them but sometimes it was annoying. They mostly always came with girls. Jeonghan knew that Seungcheol was bisexual so he found himself wondering if he was having sex with those girls. It left him feeling a little pang in his chest but he waved it off. He couldn't be jealous or was he?

One particular day, after a stressful day at work, he was strolling leisurely in the street and when he was almost at the house, he received a call from Seungcheol.

"My friends are here" He simply said. 

"Oh great, Now I'm tired and I have to sleep" Jeonghan complained.

"I'm sorry Jeonghan, I will discharge them as quickly as possible" He sounded really guilty.

"Alright!" Jeonghan said dryly and cut the call. He had to go round the house and enter through the back gate. When he did, he came to the basement, opened it and entered. Sometimes, he felt that Seungcheol was doing this on purpose to punish him. It was probably true because despite how things had changed a bit, he couldn't forget that he was still Choi Seungcheol, the arrogant playboy. 

Jeonghan removed his coat and placed them on the chair beside the spring bed. It was really cold so he laid down on the bed and covered his body with an old duvet. Slowly, he entered the dream world. 

Jeonghan woke in the middle of the night but he found out that he was no longer at the basement but was now lying on a soft bed in the warm embrace of someone. He looked up and saw Seungcheol. He gasped. His clothes had even been changed to a pair of pink comfy pyjamas. Pink pyjamas? Where did he even get it?

He was shocked feeling this was a dream. He tried to struggle out of his embrace but Seungcheol's hold on him was strong. 

"Don't move" He suddenly whispered with a smile on his lips, though his eyes were still closed. 

Jeonghan frowned harshly, his face burning "What are you doing Seungcheol ah! You! let me go now while I'm still being nice"

Seungcheol chuckled and his eyes opened. Jeonghan wanted to melt in those brown orbs as soon as his eyes met his. 

"Do you think I'm trying to do something funny?"

Jeonghan didn't say anything. Inwardly, he was hating how much he loved being in his arms. He was totally warm and he discovered to his chagrin that he wanted to be closer in everyway. He could feel their torsos almost touching and his mind was suddenly clouded with an immediate urge. He shook his head. He was just being starved of sex that was why he was allowing such lusty thoughts to overcome his mind. Besides, if he wanted sex, he could easily get it from Joshua but he didn't want to do that. He would be deceiving both himself and the American because deep down, he was attracted to Seungcheol especially since he saw him swimming in the pool,  his lean and muscular body stroking through the waters. He couldn't get it out of his mind. He was ashamed of his feelings but he also knew that the sexual tension had been there since the first time he set his eyes on him four years ago. Yes, four years ago. He had had a terrifyingly deep crush on Seungcheol.

That day, he had parked his car and stepped out to get a cheese burger. Before he could enter the shop, a group of people came out hurriedly and in their midst was Seungcheol wearing a bright smile.There was no way that he wouldn't notice him. His hair was dyed his black natural colour and he wore no shirt on his upper body as he exposed his lean and toned muscular chest with his five pacs abs. He was gorgeous. Jeonghan couldn't tear his eyes away from him. He was grinning holding a wine bottle in one hand. He looked the very picture of a bad boy. Their eyes suddenly met and when he winked at him. Jeonghan's heart beat faster. He saw the bevy of girls at his tail as he and his friends entered his car. Raising the volume of his music to the highest, they zoomed away. He couldn't stop thinking about him ever since that day and tried every means possible to get close to him but the friends he had made totally hated Seungcheol and was trying to turn Jeonghan against him. Their plans finally succeeded a year later at that party. Ever since then, he hated the boy he had once crushed on. He eventually met Joshua and they fell in love so he thought the feelings he had for Seungcheol had been pushed to the past but now they had resurfaced again with a vengeance.