LaVaughn Jester
"LaVaughn, long time no see." Ms. Poland said. "Hi." I said. "How you feeling? What brings you in?" She asked. I sighed getting ready to express my feelings. "It's a lot of emotions in one." I said. "We have time, get to talking." She said. I nodded.
"Well, let's go back. I first started feeling Zaire when I was 17, a year after we met. He gave off this different type of vibe. I fell in love with that. I fell in love with him. Just a few days ago, he told me he was in love with me. I didn't know how to move on that, being that I've been played so much I don't know what to believe. We haven't let that interfere with our friendship." I said. "Now, let me go way back. I had this friend, her name was Genesis. She was the pretty, popular kind. Everytime I was with her, I felt invisible. Every boy would wanna talk to her, they would ignore me and talk to her." I said.
"I hated feeling like that, she made me feel like I was below her. So, I cut her off. And once I did, I started getting the attention, and I became more popular." I added. "Now, fast forward. This new girl named Kaylani, my brother bought her home. She was Genesis in another body. She was beautiful. Now that she's there, I feel invisible again. I feel like I have to do certain things to get Zaire and Ants attention. I think I'm so use to being the only girl." I said.
"I think Kaylani and Zaire has sex, I could be wrong. But, they came out the bathroom together fixing their clothes. I can't even tell you how heart broken I was. I felt like my heart was being torn in pieces slowly, I felt like it was being stomped in repeatedly. I didn't tell Zaire when he asked me what was wrong, I just told him it was my place to tell him who he could and could not have sex with." I added.
"Seems like your insecurities coming back."
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I walked into the house hearing talking from afar. "Hey y'all." I said as soon as I walk in. I guess they was so engrossed into the conversation with Kaylani, they didn't hear me. "Ok." I said and walked into the kitchen seeing another girl. But, she was even prettier. "Hi." I said. "Oh hi." She said turning around. "I'm Amauri." She said. "LaVaughn." I said. "Nice name." She said and turned back to the stove.
I grabbed me a water and headed upstairs. I walked into the room and seen a bottle of pills. "Don't do it V." I told myself. "You wanna feel like LaVaughb again? Do it." I grabbed the bottle and looked at it. "Fuck it." I said. And popped in open downing two.
I sat on my bed and let it take it's course. An hour later, I felt so much better. Hearing the door open, I popped up and came eye to eye with Zaire. "Phat? When you get here?" He asked. "Probably 2 hours ago, who knows and who cares? Nobody right?" I said. "Why didn't you say anything?" He asked. "I did, I said Hey Guys!" I yelled. "And nobody answered, except that Amauri girl. I like her." I added. I looked at him and started giggling. "It's okay though, cause when have anybody ever cared about LaVaughn?" I asked. "That's never." I said grabbing the water and the pill bottle about to leave.
"Phat." He said grabbing my arm. "Give me the pills." He said holding his hand out. "Fuck you." I said lowly snatching my arm away. I walked downstairs and seen Ant fucking Amauri on the couch, that just blew my high. "Wow nobody has respect around here?" I asked. "Woah, V. When you get here?" He asked. I shook my head and walked out the front door.
It was pouring raining but I don't really care at this point. I hope somebody kill me. I walked down the street, downing two more pills. I love the feeling these pills give me, it's an amazing feeling.
Walking back into the house, soaking wet I seen everyone sitting on the couch. "Are you sober now?" Zaire asked me. "I'm not smiling nor laughing." I mumbled. "Phat what's wrong?" Zaire asked. "Please tell him cause you ruined my dick appointment." The Kaylani girl mumbled, but I heard her.
