My blind hero

Chapter 3

Bakuguo P.O.V

So in basic terms...I was an asshole. I was a weak guy with no sense of self control but God forbid I told anyone that. Having seen how strong everyone was I knew I wouldn't last in one on one fight with at least half of them. It was like waking up in a mirror world where everything was reversed and me...who had always been stronger than everyone else was the weakling now. These thoughts echoed in my head for days and when I was finally coming to terms with the idea that I just needed to work harder something else clicked with me. Deku. I didnt really notice at first and maybe it was because I didnt like him that it took me so long to see it but he was openly avoiding me. He'd arrive to class before anyone and would leave before anyone. He sat with Engine and round face but would lower his head when I entered the Cafeteria. During class his eyes would never leave his paper and he rarely looked up to see what was being written down on the board. During training he would stay in areas that were further away from where I was located. This shouldn't have bugged me as much as it did but it did. I was used to Deku doing everything he could to avoid conflict with me but even in those cases he would still say hi or acknowledge my existence at least but to avoid me so openly that even the teachers noticed was completely new to me. To him, it was almost like I didnt even exist anymore. He would walk past me in the hallways and just barely miss knocking into me by an inch. His big dorky smile on his face around everyone else but me. When did Deku stop smiling me...? I didnt know but I also for some reason felt like I didn't have to right to remember the last time I saw him smile for me and me alone. I picked up on the fact that Engine and round face weren't necessarily being more protective of Deku but they hardly ever let him out of their sight. I had no clue was going on but I couldn't let it continue. Several days later we were involved in the attack on USJ where the league of Villians attacked the students and injured both of our teachers. Deku being careless was injured again and was taken to the infirmary along with Mr. Aizawa, 13 and All Might. After that I tried to create situations where Deku would have to interact with me but even still he would barely acknowledge my existence and be on his way where Round face would be close by and would give me dirty looks. What the fuck was going on. A part of me wanted to corner him and make him tell me what was going on but I couldn't ever bring myself to do.

One afternoon when everyone was on their way home from school I saw Kirishima talking to Deku. I stopped to listen to their conversation. It was a childish thing to do but I wanted to figure out what the hell was going on. "You've been acting really weird lately. Are you okay?" Kirishima questioned
"Huh? Oh uh yeah I'm okay why do you ask?"
"Well its just you've been spending a lot of extra time in the infirmary and sometimes Iida and Uraraka won't let anyone near you. You are obviously ignoring Bakuguo. Everyone can tell." He rubbed the side of his neck. I listened for Deku's response.
"Oh well you see. I'm overworking myself and I'll tell Iida and Uraraka that they are being to over protective. I'm sorry."
He...he dodged the last part involving me. "Oh okay well what about you ignoring Baku-!"
"Sorry Kirishima, I've got to get home to help my mom. See ya tomorrow."
I felt my blood boiling inside my veins. What had I done that made him do this. I had had enough and after he walked off a ways I followed behind him. We both had almost reached the station when I grabbed his arm and yanked him behind a wall where no one could see us. "Deku. What the fuck is going on with you?"
He didnt answer for a second.
"ANSWER ME DAMNIT!" I gritted my teeth and slammed my fist into the wall next to his head. He flinched away and took a shakey breath. "Let me go Kacchan. I need to get home."
I felt my eye twitch as I held him in place. He didnt try to pull away from me either. He just stood there, his head lowered and his body was trembling just enough for me to notice. "What did you say?"
"I-I said let me g-go. I ha...have to get home."
It was like every muscle in my body turned off and I backed away from the green haired boy. He took another deep breath and started to walk away. I didnt understand why my body did that, it was like a switch had been flipped and I was suddenly no longer in control of myself. I turned my head and watched at Deku walked away from me, his shoulders shaking. No. I wasnt going to let up. I wanted answers and I was going to get them. I rushed at him and grabbed his arm again. I pulled him back and slammed him against the wall again. "Who the hell do you think you are? You're just shitty Deku. DON'T TALK BACK TO ME!"
No...that's not what I wanted to say. Shit...that's not what I wanted to tell him. "I have nothing to say to you Kacchan."
Anger flared inside of me as I grabbed his chin and forced his chin up. Before I even knew what was going on, I found my lips pressed against his. I couldn't tell complete due to his hair covering eyes but I swore I could have seen them widen. He pressed him against the wall with my body weight and held him there for a few minutes. Once it kicked in what was happening. He pressed his hands against my chest in a desperate attempt to push me away. What was I doing? Why was I doing it? I should be punching him..not kissing him. After another few minutes I finally released his mouth from mine and he dropped his head. His whole body was shaking and I could hear him holding back choked sobs. Shit...shit...shit that was his first kiss and I'm sure I was the last person he wanted to have it with. I let him walk away from me after that. I didnt even try to stop him this time. I hadn't gotten the answer I wanted but not my head with over filling with more questions then when I first approached him.