Dear Emma,
The pain which aches my already broken heart kills it even more each day and is now, once again, is killing me inside.
I'm trying to be brave, I really am but nothing I try seems to be working, nothing I can wrap my mind around is working and attempting to heal all the pain everything has caused me.
Every day gets even harder for me to try and live by and I can only try to imagine how hard it is for you.
How hard it is for you to not be able to come back to me or to hear anything I say. No matter how hard I want you try and hear it or no matter how much you want to.
Every day, every single day, I awake to find you lying back to me, in the same position you were in when I fell asleep. Lying still on the bed.
Just like today. You didn't drink my hot cocoa with cinnamon which I got you from Granny's. But that's okay. That's okay because I'll just go and get you another one and you know what? I'll just continue to get you one until the day you wake up and come back to me.
No matter how long it is I'll keep waiting for you and I'll keep buying you drinks from Granny's and hopefully one day, you'll come back to me and drink it. God, how much I want that day to pass me by.
Today Swan, Doctor Whale came to see you to do a check up. Don't worry Em, everything is fine. He said your leg is healing perfectly and your abdomen looks okay, but he might need to perform another operation on it later on.
Don't stress because that probably won't even happen if you just keep trying to recover and if you keep trying to come back to me.
Try your hardest to come back to me, just to wake up and look at me with your beautiful eyes and I'll try my hardest to be brave for you, I'll try to not let this stop me from living the life you would want me to, like I promised.
It's going to be hard to keep living my life without you, but I'm going to keep my promise and try. I'll try all I can and I'll hope one thing, one way, it'll work. No matter how hard it is I'll keep going, keep trying.
I've got a feeling that this is just going to keep getting harder every single day, but I'm a survivor Swan, just like you know it. And I can survive anything, even what I think is impossible, one day, one day I'll get through it.
We can get through anything life throws at us as long as we are together and I can assure you Em, I'm not going anywhere.
Love Killian.
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