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Part 23: Mental Breakdown

(Herobrines FoV)
Darkness.
Pure Darkness.
It's cold.
It's cold as ice.
A rustle went through the cold Darkness.

My eyes shot open. Something was not right. I couldn't feel any pain. The first thing I saw was darkness. Then I started to scream. Around me where millions and millions of numbers. All were admiring a cold, dark white light. I looked around. I was floating in midair right over... There is no floor. I looked around. "Don't tell me..." I said. I was getting extremely scared. But there was no way out of this. "NO! LET ME OUT! I DON'T WANT TO BE CORRUPTED! I DON'T WANT TO BE BROKEN AGAIN! JUST LET ME OUT!" I screamed into the pure Darkness. I was shaking like crazy. "WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS? I DIDN'T HARM ANYONE!" I called out. "please don't do this to me..." I sat down in the void. Suddenly I felt a stinging pain in my left hand. I looked at it and saw it glitching out. "please don't..." I started to cry. All of the bad memories started flodding into my mind. I felt helpless. Worthless. Lost. The only thing I had with me was a knife. I did have one when I first got here. I took it out and held it on my throat. Suddenly I heard a single sentence: "He seems to be unconscious." I turned around and saw a monitor behind me. Gaster and the others where on it. As well as my body. I went towards it and put my hand against it. There was Victoria. She was crying. Her hand rested on my cheek. Notch was standing there. "If what you told me is true... Then he is in the void again." All I wanted to do is give Victoria a hug. She was terrified. Notch sat next to me. He looked at my body. "He seems to be corrupted again." Victoria put her head on my shoulder and cried into it. I sighed and slid down against the monitor. I took the knife. Maybe I should just end it. I cut my arm and watched the blood dripping down into the dark abyss. The black metal bracelets were still on my wrists, not allowing me to cut the artery that would kill me. I sighed and cut a few times more. Suddenly I remembered something and asked myself: "What would Victoria do in this situation?" I thought about it. Probably find a way out. But how? I looked at the long codes and lines. I remembered that when I was here once one number was gone. So I stood up and started floating around.

A few minutes later I found the place. I took some blood from my arm and drew a 0. Suddenly I got thrown backwards and went unconscious again.

I was happy when I woke up again. Only to find myself in the void again. "NO!" I screamed. This was insane! Why won't it work? I can't possibly have written the wrong number since I knew which one should be there. I went back there and tried a 1. It's just a simple binary code. And I could write it. But I got thrown back again. This time without getting unconscious. It didn't work again. Now this is getting annoying. I screamed at the top of my lungs. I was pissed. A few minutes later I finally calmed down a little bit. My throat was aching. I sighed again and went back to the monitor. Maybe something else is missing. I looked at Victoria which was asleep. She looked so innocent when she's sleeping. I looked away again. The sight of her being asleep filled me with hope and determination. I flew around for half an hour and finally found something. A corrupted number. I felt my hand aching again but this time stronger. I didn't know what to do now. Maybe... I put up my left hand and touched the number. It was a zero. It felt like I was being sucked into a black hole. I used my magic and tried to heal the number. And it worked. Even tho it takes a lot of energy. I felt like collapsing when I had finally finished. Now the only thing I had to do is wait.

With the hours I started to get more and more helpless. Nothing was happening. The monitor disappeared and I was floating around in darkness. I felt like I was drowning. My thoughts were restless. I thought about so many thing that I started to get a headache. I was losing hope slowly but surely. And I was growing insane from that. My brain was telling me to give up. But my soul told me to stay determined. And I had a mental breakdown a few hours ago. Now I'm sitting somewhere in the darkness. I was glitching out more and more as time goes on. I had lost my feeling for time. My knife was completely bloody. So were my arms. I never cried so many years in my life. I am completely corrupted now. It hurts like crazy but it's the only thing that keeps me from losing control over myself. I need someone to at least have sit by me. I'm still scared. I know that corruptions mostly end with death. I put the knife on my throat again. I was playing with that thought for a long time. The thought of giving up. But I force myself to drag the knife away from my throat. I couldn't keep myself sitting here and waiting forever. So I stand up and start to run in a random direction. I already tried teleporting out of here and eventually found out that I can't. I ran along with my heartbeat. After almost an complete hour I collapsed on the floor and started going insane. I saw dead bodies around me. Me sitting between them with the knife in my hand. My hands were still bloody. I looked at them. And then they disappeared again. This time someone else appeared: Notch. I remembered how I almost killed him. I held his cold body in my arms. The brown eyes were wide open and looking at something I couldn't see. I closed my eyes. Then I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked up and saw Nightmare standing in front of me. At least I thought it was Nightmare until I noticed the green eyes. It was Absentia. He looked at me. Fear and pain were seen is his eyes. Then he was gone. I looked around again, expecting something to happen. And it did. A white door appeared. I stood up. Was this it? I went towards it and went through it.

Still.
Darkness.
Fear.
Pain.
Cold.
And eventually...
Nothing.

I opened my eyes again. I didn't expect anything. And that's what happened. Lines of Code. I groaned and put my hands on my head. It can't be! Again?! I couldn't handle it anymore. I yelled as loud as even possible, letting every ounce of anger out. "Fuck it! I give up! No! I ain't doing that shit again! No! NO! I am not going to do it again! I give up! I don't care! Either you send me a way to let me out, which always fails, or I stay here forever! Either way! I WON'T FIND A WAY OUT OF HERE!" I didn't even try to calm down anymore. I started to laugh like a psychopath. "There is no way out! There is no way out! Hihihihi!" I stabbed myself it the chest but nothing happened. I pulled out the knife again. "Nothing happened! I'm corrupted!" I  chuckled. "You hear me Notch? I'M BROKEN! YOU CAN'T HURT ME ANYMORE! I'M INVINCIBLE!" I laughed. It felt great. I didn't care if I was growing insane. I don't care! I would be stuck here forever! Even Victoria can't do anything against it! I took me necklace and looked at it. The black dragon's tooth was bloodred. I grinned and put it around my neck again. I glitched out again. But it didn't hurt. I wasn't myself anymore. My soul appeared in front of me and I stopped. I raised my hand and put it on my soul. The grey shine went through my fingers. But it pressed. The soul shattered. I grinned like a maniac. Finally.

(Notchs' FoV)
I fell to the ground. Victoria sat down next to me. I was clutching my chest. She put her hands on my shoulder and calmed me down. I looked into her eyes. "He broke his own soul." I gasped before falling into unconsciousness. His body had disappeared a few minutes ago. With his soul being shattered I got hit because when we where friends everybody got a piece of the others soul so we don't forget each other.