never goodbye

Chapter 5

You can close your eyes to                                                                                                                                                     The the things you don't want to see,                                                                                                                          But you can't close your heart to                                                                                                                                          The things you don't  want to feel

—Johnny depp 

It's funny how one day you can be so mad at something and the next day you completely forget about it. I didn't feel that way however. I still felt everything as if someone had forgotten to put a bandaid on my wound. The sight of my dad with another woman flashed into my mind and I suddenly hated him even more. I knew I should've understood  but I didn't. It felt all wrong. I finally sat up on my bed and combed my fingers through my hair. It was 3:15 which meant school was already out. I didn't go today because mom had called the principal and told him that I was sick. That was a lie. She told me that maybe I wanted to get everything together.that was the truth. Even through all my emotions I smiled. What mom does that for you? I stood up and picked the book up off the floor.  Holding it in my hand I looked out the window over at scarlett's house. I wondered what she was doing right now. She probably just got back from school. Maybe she was wondering where I have been all morning. Actually no. It weren't like we were friends. We just had one meal together. Ok. Maybe that is something friends do but this wasn't the case. I sighed. I really should stop talking to myself so much. If people heard my thoughts I'm pretty sure they would think I was a crazy person. I walked down stairs and headed to the fridge. It was pretty much empty. Unless you were crazy about bread,mayonnaise,milk,a few sticks of butter, and those bottled waters mom claimed were full of vitamins but what looked like plain bottled water with a fancier label. I gave up with the fridge and took the captain crunch out the cabinet. You can never go wrong with cereal. Just as I was about to open the fridge for the milk someone knocked on the door. Why? Why? Why? I thought. Why does someone have to knock at this moment, When my life is in total Ruins. I slowly walked to the door, trying to think of an excuse as to why I couldn't open it. Maybe I was being quarantined because I had a deadly virus. No that wouldn't work. I would be dead by then. I opened the door. There was Scarlett. She couldn't be here at a more wrong time. 

"Hi." She said

My mind thought of reasons as to why exactly she was here. 

"Hi." I said back.

We stood there awkwardly.

"You weren't at school today. It was totally lame. I had to sit next some girl who kept talking to herself. It was very very creepy."

I smiled.

"Yeah.it does sound creepy." Another awkward moment. "Hey. I'm really sorry about what happened."

A light bulb went off in my brain. That's why she was here. Not for any social visit but to feel sorry for me. I needed to find a way to get out of this pity party.

"Yea well. It's no big deal. I got over it."

"Your dad is a definitely a jerk."

I blinked in surprise.

Scarlett instantly took it back. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean that. No. I did. But I shouldn't have said that out loud because I hardly know your dad. My sister said I'm too blunt and too quick to make assumptions so I'm working on it."