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martel

sa dalawang araw na gala kasama si kuusela, may isang bagay akong natuklasan. one that mostly concerns myself, but could potentially affect kuusela herself.

bakit ko nga ba inilabas si kuusela?

una, hindi siya palagala. naisip kong bigyan siya ng pagkakataong maexperience ang mga bagay na ginagawa ng normal na kabataan sa henerasyon ito. pangalawa, alam kong kagagaling niya pa lang sa isang emosyonal na pag-uusap kasama si tita. despite the relief na naresolba na ang problema nilang dalawa, it's no denying that stress definitely took a toll on her. she needed some winding up to relax. third, i want her to overcome her fears. as said before, it wouldn't hurt to cross out the remaining fears on the list, would it?
the last reason maybe a selfish one.

i want to spend time with her.

i don't need to deny anything. unlike blue, that numb friend of mine, alam ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko. spending time with her was just another test to confirm my suspicions.

i am growing feelings for armi kuusela.

some people might find it rushed, considering the time we have interacted well was roughly a week ago. hindi lang naman mga babae ang marupok - guys can be one, too.

i've gone through a lot of flings before. i admit, kuusela wasn't wrong when she said i was a total flirt. i was narrowminded, thinking that the only way to show my disagreement against my parents was through rebelling - and by rebelling, it meant flirting with girls. it was a cowardly move. rather than solving it direct to the point, i've made matters worse. i toyed with girls, disregarding their feelings. if not through kuusela, i wouldn't have woken up from this foolishness.

kung hindi rin ako naging malandi, baka kagaya na rin ako ng kaibigan kong pinsan ni kuusela. kung hindi rin ako natutong lumandi, i probably wouldn't have seen the flush on her face.

i love seeing her flushed cheeks because of me.

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princess

it's kuusela, dummy

you love hearing it, babe

no. they're gross

but i make you blush, don't i?

and then there was no reply

kuusela?

kinikilig ka ba?

you wish

i was shivering in agony

kinikilig ka, kuusela. i know it.

any plans tomorrow?

to get away from your awful nicknames

sadly, princess, you can't

labas ulit tayo bukas?

we went out for two days straight, dummy

is dummy your new endearment to me, princess?

no. its meant to insult you

oh? but i feel very flattered.

pinapakilig mo ako, kuusela

landi

you're making advances to me, huh?

so what if i am?

let's go out tomorrow

may sasabihin ako sayo.

it's very important.

i'm confused but fine

good night, princess

good night dummy

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a minute after our conversation, i was notified of kuusela's recent post.

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a🔒 @a_kuusela • 15s
the criminal is making my emotions go nuts and im very confused :/
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oh? so i did have an effect on her.

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martel🔒 @chrstnchoi • 1s
tomorrow, i will overcome the challenge called you.
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