Billie Shelby

Part 11

I had fallen asleep not long after tea,which Polly had made for me and Micheal,around 7pm.
I woke up the next morning to hear Arthur and John messing around;laughing loudly ,so loud that the whole house could here. It was around 8am but that didn't stop them.
I assume that they must of stayed over after getting drunk at the Garrison like they did often-not wanting to walk home.

I went to walk downstairs but suddenly felt sick. I turned and ran to the bathroom,only to find it locked. I banged on the door as loud and as fast as I could. "I'm in here!!" John shouted loudly to me.
"John please let me in!!!"I pleaded,pain clear in my tone.
"Alright alright"he said and finally the door unlocked.
I ran straight pass John with my hand over my mouth,but i noticed his confused facial expression as I did this.
I reached the toilet and threw up. John had shut the bathroom door before running over to me and grabbing my hair out the way,rubbing my back.
"it's alright Bill"he said after noticing my small cry.
'Fuck' I thought to myself,this can't be.
"Oh shit"I had mumbled,perhaps a little too loudly.
"what Bill,what is it?"
I flushed the toilet and he backed away from me.I turned my head to face him,still sat on the floor. "Don't tell Polly about this John"I sad with tears slowly brimming my eyes.
"What?"he questioned still confused.
"John promise me?!"I said back to him.
I could see his eyes scanning me ,still wondering what just happened.
"John!!"I shouted to him.
"Yes alright"
"Or Tommy ,or anyone"I continued
"Why Billie?whats wrong?"
I stood up from the toilet ,walking over to the sink and washing my face before taking a deep breath.in-then-out.
John just studied my every move,still obviously having no clue. And then I left,heading to my room getting dressed and leaving the house,avoiding talking to anyone,like nothing happened.
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Billie sat by the canal,with her feet dangling over the water,alone with her thoughts.
She went there often when she wanted to be alone,as it was peaceful and surrounded by grass, trees and flowers and the sun hit there early morning and early evening. It calmed her.

She wanted to escape the noise of small heath ,even just for 1 hour before work.

However her alone time was interrupted when she noticed Tommy walking towards her.
'Can he not just leave me alone?'she thought.
He came and sat down beside her.
"you've got work in an hour Bill"he stated.
She ignored him,not saying anything in response.
He shook his head and scoffed "ignoring me eh?"
She turned to him with fire in her eyes "what do you want Tom?"

She watched as he pulled a cigarette out from his coat pocket and lit it;taking a long drag before breathing out the smoke.
"I spoke to John"he revealed. In response Billie turned her gaze back onto the water,not wanting to look her brother in the eye.

"Said you threw up this morning but you insisted he kept it to himself and specifically not tell me." he paused "Why was that Billie?"he questioned,but clearly he already knew.
Billie again ignored her brother,with no response.
Tommy took another drag from his cigarette.
"I found out today that even though John's had 4 kids he's still not the brightest. You see he couldn't connect the dots Bill..."he paused as he blew out the smoke-"but I can"he said turning to look at her.
Billie pulled out some grass from around her,playing with it in her fingers. She gulped,not knowing what to do.She tried to play it cool-"what are you talking about Tom?"she asked trying to throw Tommy off.
Tommy scoffed and threw he cigarette into the canal. He rubbed his face with his hand before, looking onto the water.
"Who's is it?"he asked,without looking to her.
Billie looked to him ,scared,but trying not to show it. "Tommy what are you on about?"

Tommy lost his temper.
"Don't you fucking look to me and lie Billie!" He snapped,pointing his finger in her face.She leant away from him,scared.
She faced the water again but said nothing.
Tommy exhaled loudly, calming himself.
"Look just tell me his fucking name"he said though gritted teeth.
'shit'Billie thought.
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Tommy's P.O.V
I watched her as her eyes scanned the water.
She said nothing.
Then I watched as she began to stand up "I'm going to be late for work".
"Sit the fuck down"I commanded her,not letting her run off again.
She followed my order and sat back down.
She inhaled heavily. "Tommy please.."
"I said tell me his fucking name"I interrupted.
"I don't know!"she shouted to me ,before staring me in the eyes and then looking away.
"What?"I said,through gritted teeth.
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Billies P.O.V
"I don't know!"I shouted. I lied. Of course I knew. But I wasn't going to send the poor boy to his grave by telling tommy his name.

He scoffed at me shaking his head in disbelief.
"You what?" He asked,like he needed to hear it again in order to believe me.
I just looked him in the eye,as tears slowly filled mine.
"So you're a whore are you Billie?"he asked with a half laugh.
I immediately stared at him with a rage filling me and raised my hand to slap him.But before my hand met his face he gripped my wrist,preventing me. He stared me right in the eyes,with his blank expression.
I too now stared him in the eyes ,not going to give in.

I ripped my hand from his grasp.
"Don't fucking touch me Tommy!"I screamed to him and I stood up.
He huffed,"just sit back down Billie"he said watching me.
I shook my head and slowly backed away.
"Billie!"he shouted.
Immediately I decided it was my chance to run and get away from this confrontation.
Tommy too now stood up desperately trying to chase after me.
I ran to the Garrison.
This all felt so familiar,running from Tommy heading toward the Garrison,looking to hide.
Although I was hoping John was there so I could kill him for telling Tommy.
I think I had lost Tommy to his exhaustion so I now began walking too, desperately trying to catch my breath.